Prose-a-try-in Motion 2019-Inspirational Verse in the Style of Emily Dickinson! HT Wagner

Prose-a-try-in Motion 2019!

Inspirational Verse in the Style of Emily Dickinson

Believe in What You Feel Inside – HT Wagner – January 2019

Dream big

But do not force the NOW-

all them to grow organically

and they all will be realized

God’s timing

Mellow with eyes 

and ears open

Journal

Journal 

Journal

Massive Disruption – HT Wagner – March  2019

Trauma

Life altering

Begs

Borrows and Steals

the Deep Well of Love

Goes dry

But Just for a while

to Regenerate

Repair 

Make amends 

for the Lack

The Ebb of the Tide

of Tomorrow

All things are transient

All things are new.

Become stale quickly

When denied the oxygen

The breath of life

Without which there is no tomorrow

No reason to Live another day.

Those who yearn

Lust of the stage of this earth

are only pons

in the Great Chess Game

Where the Kings and Queens

Make noble 

Fake not

Break not

Bring the liar

to their knees

To say Yes to the Great Amen

February 15, 2019

Stealing Poetry – Inspired by Robert Frost …’The Speck’

Traveling at Warp Speed – HT Wagner

But unnoticed to the wary eye

Thin the air aloft

Set off across the space 

So clear…

Of forest  and dragon flies

A speck that would have been above my sight

On the Wallpaper high

Camouflaged

When something strange about it 

made me think…

Inexorably linked …

To all that is

Was 

and will forever be….

Stiff-Necked Weary Worriers – 2019

Patience People

Without the assist of the Helper

Life becomes a bog

a slog

quicksand

Stiff necked means

Missing parts-

Loveliness in reserve

in suspension

Lowliness pervades

Permeates

Percolates

Passes through 

On its way to the nether world

Tested

Refined

Become the Holy Grail

the long sought and never found

Missing throughout the Ages

Not seen

Too close

they have one eye

and one ear

single focus

ready to refute

and argue about nothingness

all tha matters not

Politics mostly-

Where for thou Goest – HT Wagner March 2019

So shall I

Not Kosher 

Not possible 

to be counter

it becomes obtuse

Offensive 

and lethal to the soft

grateful  Presence 

an made holy by accepting 

Loving

Being 

Knowing that lonely

Cannot be

it is a self imposed state

Outside the Garden

17 years honing on this self-selected Cross

Holding pattern for eternity 

or come down now 

For me and all of my Swaddled

and giving to Mary to do with as She wishes

Have the courage to manage Idols and sycophants-

It is in You that I Find my Heart – HT Wagner – 2019

My Heart only knows You

and Your Mother

My Life

No Other

No other Way

than the Way of the Cross’

Those like-minded

will be there to support me 

the Father

Reigns 

Rocks

I revel in the Love that I have  found

Take me

Break me

I am yours and will follow Your lead-

The Grower -2019

Sees ahead

Plants

and plants for all contingencies 

Knows the weather

Uncertain and unforgiving

Counts on blessings 

Knows the soil

Fragile 

Complex

and needy

Knows the laborers 

Needy 

Fragile and complex

The yield if often Providential

Depends on the earth and the sea tides

Cosmic driven

Cosmic received 

Grace and Gratitude 

Heart Felt 

Hovering Above – HT Wagner – March 2019

Traveling at warp speed …

But unnoticed to the wary eye

Thin the air aloft

Set off across the space so clear

forest fires and dragon flies

In time,

We travel 

to a  place that we once knew

Subiaco

Camelot

Sir Lancelot on a fine stettled

and Maid Marion

The wallpaper of my psyche

My soul

The fly on the wall

inexorably mine

Stealing Poetry from Robert Frost – The Speck

A speck that would have been above my sight

On the Wallpaper high

Camouflage

When something strange about it 

made me think…

Inexorably linked …

To all that is

Was 

and will forever be….

and never to be taken

Shared 

the Elysian field

Open

Fragile

and fraught with mystery, awe and a happy ending-

O Lord – HT Wagner – March – 2019

You find me

Where I hide 

Where I  pray

Never leave me

and those who follow me…

My swaddled are given to Mother Mary to do with ‘as she wishes’

The Wise Men Knew HT Wagner- 2019

They follow a star

So should we

The science of energy

Told 

Confirmed

Choice made

unfold like clockwork

of the a knowing God 

In Who we are suspended

Live and breathe

He is the Breath and we are the branches

Profound in the Mundane – HT Wagner – May 2019

Where the rubber meets the road-

Tread bare

We care to tread

Hapless 

Hopeless 

None-the-less – we are

Above all

or between the wall of the world

We choose

or are driven by the stars light

Finding Center

Failing and rising again

To find a new center

Ebb and tide of eternity

Ever lasting 

Ever ceasing

All knowing

All encompassing

Other is the reason – we are

Ego shell dissolved by love

Alter ego waiting to be

Bless the addict in a holding pattern 

We find our way the we find Other

Other is the reason we are

and the only reason to be

Truth emerges and we are free 

To Range and fly above the earth into a space 

Eternity!

Without other 

We are the only the dust of the earth 

Ego – not planted in 

Clay

In the Way – HT Wagner – May 2019

Show me

Grow me

Let me be who I am

Who I am to be

Because of You

Those who know

Those who do not know

All the same

Blame

Frame other to  pretend

They are real

When they are not

Not at all a person

But a Speck of nothing

The Small Mind pretends-

The Small Mind knows it all

In the realm of Self

Not other…

Truth is perception

Perception is just another lie

Who cares 

The stars set reality and we obey

or not

I will no longer speak much with You,

For the ruler of the world is coming.

They have  no power over me-

But the world must know that I love the Father

And that I do just as the Father has commanded me.”

My command is to retreat! 

For now and forever more?

I  will not and cannot betray who I am or who I am meant to be..

The Grower – HT Wagner – May 2019

Sees ahead

Plants

and Plans for all contingencies 

Knows the weather

Uncertain and unforgiving

Counts on blessings 

Knows the soil

Fragile 

Complex

and needy

Knows the laborers 

Needy 

Fragile and complex

The yield if often Providential

Depends on the earth and the sea tides

Cosmic driven

Cosmic received 

Grace and Gratitude 

Heart Felt 

Evening Prayer – HT Wagner – May 2019

Hidden inside

Knowing

Trusting that no matter what happens 

Life is Transitory

The pain is brief 

and all will be worked out for the good,

Haters will hate

Judgers will judge-

So what is new?

To Wait for ‘the Promise’ of the Father  HT Wagner – June 2019

Resurrection

Vindication

Faithfulness

Trust 

Endurance

Bears fruit

Fear

Anxiety 

Blocks the flow of Eternity-

His Love – HT Wagner – June 2019

He will renew you in His love

He will sing joyfully because of you

Faithfully Yours

Mindfully mine

Whither thou goest

I go

It is easy when there is Wind beneath your wings

Breath for Breathing

Heart beats to the tune of the Cosmos

Flow

Freedom to soar 

 Not my Will 

But the Will of all Eternity-

May the Eyes of  Hearts be Enlightened’ – HT Wagner -June 2019

Hearts reign over us

Emotions

Mind instructs

Discern is the ‘habit of the Mind’

The eyes of the heart are Mary

She sees all

Knows all and ‘IS’-

It is not a choice

But an eternal assignment

That was 

Is 

and ever will be 

Before the foundation of time

Small Minds

Think they know it all!

When they do in the Small Mind box they inhabit

The Minds of the Mind of Chris are programmed to see others as friends

The Small minds see there as fro OFF!

To be avoided 

So as not to infect! 

With the GRACE OF GOD!

O horrors!

Small minds resist change

Closed

Judging and perceiving nothingness-

Are only clay which will Remain

When eternity falls-

The Far Away God So Close – HT Wagner – June 2019

The Divine Presence

The Autumn Mist

We are the clay suspend 

In the flow 

Flow the Chi of the living God

The Sacred Space in Between the Flow 

Of Grace

Chi, the guardian spirit or God

Where we find God

Not that of Moses

but that of the Christ

The  Breath of the Holy Spirit

On Pentecost day-

Chi hovera – Like  a  Dove

Lay Down Your Life for Abundant  and Everlasting Life – June 2019

And I consecrate myself for them-

so that they also may be consecrated in truth.”

I gave them your Word, and the world hated them

‘It is more blessed to give than to receive.’”

When glimmering of Truth fall on deaf ears and blind eyes

Be joyful 

They may not catch the Light 

But Those who are meant to receive

Will receive

and those who are of the world only

Will mock and jeer

Grace from broadcasting the Truth

Without expectations

Seeds not sewn- 

Can never become a fruitful vine.

Gentle Angel of Light – HT Wagner – June 201

Be with me today

To find truth where it lies beneath the plane

the dim

See beyond perception

a notion of nothingness

no judgement

no fault

Only rapture where heaven lives

breaths and cradles our being

Let light shine out of darkness

Has shown in out hearts to bring light Chi-

the circulating life force whose existence and properties are the basis of much Chinese philosophy and medicine-

Søren Kierkegaard (1813—1855)

Kant – All human knowledge begins with intuitions, proceeds from thence to concepts, and ends with ideas.

My Prayer – HT Wagner – June 2019

My hope

is in God’s Plan

Mapping my life

Trusting in all 

The anxious leaning

The uncertainty

Save for the confirmation of right and wrong

I know how it will all end

For the Good of Creation

A Pawn – I am

Expendable

Useful

In Love with Life

Mistakes were made to be seeds of the Holy Spirit

To understand the Way

The Way of the Cross 

That we are all call to bear

The Heart of Darkness – HT Wagner – June 2019

Holding Pattern

The Pain so deep

Paralyzing 

Without the Light

There is no day

Frigid

Job – Lost all

Family taken from Him

Job always knew how it would end.

When it Rains – Something grows!

The Narrow Gate -HT Wagner June 2019

Upwelling from the Census

Thought track to the ‘Narrow Gate’

Raw and perceived-

They pass through the ‘Narrow Gate’ of the Mind

Gateway to Prefrontal ‘Mind of Christ’

The Wet-back holding point

When – if paused

Can be made clean by a Pause 

and a choice – to allow it unfinished and raw

or polished and sacred

Positivity begins here

by chosen 

to reject the negative

Polish it with a chosen positive spin

A seed planted

Watered and fertilized 

This is how a mind is made Mindful!

I Know You Have this Covered – HT Wagner — June 2019;;;o;o

From the very foundation of time!

So why worry 

Just let it come to me!

All that is Ordained

Will come to pass

My Swaddlings will flourish

Perfection and Happiness will be 

My Way is the Highway to perfect joy!

He has done all of the Heavy Lifting

Lifting high on the Cross

We are only dust in the Wind

The Holy Spirit 

The Autumn Mist – God the space in between mist-

Suspended  in the Life Force 

that You are!

Mary – In the Middle

Protestants do not speak to her

Little do they know –

She is the link between the Father and the Son!

The Missing Link

The Mystery of the Universe

The Legend of Life

Love

Living 

A lonely life I have chosen

So Near – So Far Away HT Wagner 2019

My Lord

My  God 

You are here

Never to know

Never to see

Not heard

But to feel

But only in Whispers

Often not perceived

Why have you hidden?

The Lord of many forms

Many faces 

Many fears of many lives

Lived all at once

Now

The Spirit of Ages

Come to me

Feed on my  gratitude

Live in my love

Trip through  my wires

Where on the  Streets of Philadelphia

Battered and Bruised  

Unrecognizable to try myself

Hear the blood in my veins…

A cheque pas d’faux (false peace)

Savant of peace

Wise person of intellect

Immortality

Know that I Am God

Last to die…

Being Safe – HT Wagner – July 2019

It is in this place that I find my peace

My happiness

My love of all things holy

Sacred

Worthy

Sing a new song

Not wrought with anxiety

But with knowing

Favor

Savant of the Sacred

Savant intellectual, scholar, sage, philosopher, thinker, learned person, wise person, Solomon; guru, master, authority

Love Is – HT Wagner – August 2019

Love is a gift

Not freely given

and not chosen

But granted to one in harms-way

or in danger of loss

Man cannot choose to be in-love

that would be  a lie

and will collapse

over time and stress 

Fracture

Fold

Fall to pieces

But Eternally-given love

Love is life force

Late for Choir Rehearsal!

HT Wagner – (July 2 Eclipse)

I came to Sing –

Like a meadowlark!

Blind  ~ she was

Sang for the king 

But he loved her so 

He gave her sight!

To sing for him

She loved him so-

She died.

I came to sing and hear the sky flowing and soaring above the land

I came to sing and the Music died!

The ravens and hawks swooped over and drowned every single note of sweetness!

I came to sing and the vultures swarmed and soared in circles

Looking for death ~ rotting flesh!

I came to sing and they gathered to breathe empty thoughts an regrets

I came to sing and lost heart

Lost soul

Listening to the Music that never was!

I came to sing and found myself crying aloud for all creation ~ bright and beautiful

I came to sing and found a place in my core that was never lit before

Silently there was no more!

The Smartest Earthworm on the Planet – HT Wagner – August 2019

Knows nothing but the business of the day

Blind

Deaf to distractions

In Love with Mission

Stops a nothing to fulfill

Sees no evil

Hears vibrations and

Warnings to move to the step of a different drum~

Ok with being the lowest on the totem pole of the sky

Loves all others

Not just the  other earthworms who are ‘Just like me’!

Suffering of others

Intolerable ~ not to be tolerated 

But ‘Martha-tized”

Today I am Grateful – HT Wagner – August 2019

For a mind that can see patterns and anticipate moves!

For a Heart in love with The Sacred Heart

and his Mother

The Poor and needy to love!

Swaddled and Cared for by the Sky above

With the Birds, Beasts Insects and Earthworms that make castings’

Leaving the soil more fertile then before 

For Hyper-vigilant, angry neighbors 

Who watch me ~ should I fall!

They keep me happy and full of grace!

I thank them for all the good they do for me!

For my nephews who chose to leave before their time and

For the Righteous anger burning inside 

Always vigilant ~ to bring down

The criminals that cut them down.

Prayers forr My Grandchildren ~ all those that love them ~ and all of those who who have gone before!

Intoxication – HT Wagner – August 2019

the Tipping Point

Two inebriated souls walking by

One was heaving 

The other was yelling to the sky!

Alcohol a solvent

Stealing their future-

They do not care

May just be a ‘Creation Correction’

or hopefully only a Holding Pattern!

The Assumption – Mary remained with her about three months

and then returned to her home. 

Fiat – HT Wagner – August 2019

Yes to all

It is easily that Way

The Way of your Personal Cross

Becomes

A Way of Life

Blessed

Guarded and guaranteed

Pain when in Desolation

to reach Nirvana

Stones to walk on

Stones to be thrown at you

But at least 

the Promise we know

Will be kept!  

End Times – HT Wagner – August 2019

Fix Your Heart 

Fix your eyes on the end 

Fix your intentions on winning

The Race to the Stars

It is in this State of Being 

That will bring prosperity

Peace – Prosperity

and Divine Guidance

Stuck in a Holding Pattern – HT Wagner – August 2019

or Mind under renovation (Depression)

Parachute ~ Not an option

Speeding up the Remodel 

Often causes more delays!

Keep an eye on the end 

Glorious and Efficient 

Brand new!

Angst 

Anxiety 

Unnecessary noise 

Patience-

Power to Overcome-

Materialism Problematic – HT Wagner – August 2019

Focus on  material possessions-

Lessens competence-

the ‘good life’ – no longer appreciated

Generates negative emotions

that make happiness and well-being

relatedness and gratitude dissipate-

Gratitude ~ HT Wagner – August 2019

A massively underutilized tool 

For life improvement

Forgotten

Remembered not

Steals positivity

Take but a moment 

To ask why be grateful?

Like digging for gold

Taking time to find the glitter in the darkness!

Sake of the Kingdom of God! – HT Wagner – August 2019

Forsake the World

The Secular Business

Nothingness 

That grows to more nothingness

Grass Roots beginning

Make for the Substance

The Sustenance of The Spirit 

We are meant to be-

Creating the World with Thoughts – HT Wagner – August 2019

Your Word

Quantum-like

Knits a state-of-being 

Embellishes

Mends tears

Makes life comfortable 

or full of Nettles

Gnats and

Rats

It is simple 

So hard to believe

Practice makes Perfect 

Today I Witnessed a Fraud  August –

HT Wagner – 2019

an Actor of enormous proportions-

An avid addict

Willing to do what ever it takes 

To find the next ‘fix’

Destiny on hold ~ for  now or 

forever

Displacing goodness for nothingness

with joy and relish

Flamboyance

Just to feel the kiss of the Anti-christ

Pharma~

 Loosing the essences of life

Exchanging it for the haze of nothingness

When will it all end?

Many choose to end by snuffing-out eternal life

and end up a bit of matter 

without life’s essence – eternal

2nd Coming will be

But not for all

only the strong – chosen will survive 

I am done with phony frauds

With Small minded 

Narrow minded 

Ignorant ~ loving to be ignorant small minds

It is integrity 

Truth

Honesty – to the enth degree that I crave 

Not the Small-minded political correctness that keep one stuck in for eternity!

Full Moon and Friday 13 ~

Amplifies  – HT Wagner – September 2019

While search for a Word to light 

in the light of day

The night of day

A mighty muse 

came my way

Amplify

Simplify

Be happy 

Choose to Pause and Pray!

Keep soul humming and purring

The energy Recycles 

and becomes one with the universe

not blocked and stuck in the mud of the Sands of Time

growing mold 

and going 

Going gone!

Bless those Who Curse You – HT – Wagner – September 2019

Life Lived int the Land of ‘Off’

or Ode to  Nothingness

Politicians hate

Defend their correctness

In-laws – hate, judge and gossip white lies

To Avoid ‘Hurting the Feelings’ of of the blind, deaf and clueless 

Scan the environment to find faults and take pot shots

Snipers with Skill to behold

Not to hold!

All the Medicines – HT Wagner – September 2019

Big, Western, Functional doctors ~  pedal their wares 

To treat the symptom and not the heart

All for profit and not necessarily for the heart

To fit the form of a Business Model of Greed

Abort the babies 

That are in the Way of the Path to Nothingness

Pleasure 

Not pain

Useful extinction of that ‘Mentality of Me’

Allow them to control birth and not bring in new life

Only to destroy 

It it cannot be controlled ~ 

It must be condemned 

Murder not an adaptive quality for the slow process of Evolving


‘Tact’- is the lie they speak  

The Language of Integrity ~ foreign to them

No translation 

However  ~

Useful to protect the Alter Ego

A martyrs heart they command 

With Skill and Agility ~

Hypocrites, Scribes, Pharisees, Money Changer, Tax collectors and all

Still Alive and well today!

Still nailing Him to the Cross of Dysfunction

Making a place to live and die 

Cold, harsh and empty


The Insecure Sycophants – HT Wagner – September 2109

Propped up by flattery and deception

Longing to Speak the Truth ~

But cannot see beyond  the shadow of their lies 

Lawyers

Lawsuits 

Restraining  orders

To shore up their lies

What lies ahead for them ~ 

What’s in your Wallet!

For Whom the Belle tolls – HT Wagner – September 2019

In my way

Over my head

Is the path I have chosen!

It is better this way

The Spirit show wear

But does not care

The Secular Ways of the World

Fatal to the Soul

The transport to eternal life and beyond

 Hardwired by Henry and a

Soulfully and skillfully made by Evelyn

The abandoned orphan 

Who never gave up!

Quitting ever an option

Not even a ‘nice-to-have’

Grace that flows through the generations

only to be recycled 

Progressive loops of love

Leaving nothing to the imagination

But holy dreams to fulfill

Awake – HT Wagner – September 2019

Awake

But not

Alive 

But not

Incoming arrives and glares

The stars know 

but care not to share

The lanets align 

In fancy formations 

Heavenly hash

The Wheels of the chariot

Creation bound

Turn and Retrograde 

Refit 

The pain of the hour

Waxes and wanes with the Moon

It is in not knowing that we know

It is believing that we trust

It is dying that we are born to Eternal life 

The Best – HT Wagner – September – 2019

Yet to come

Yet to become

Yet to be

The Cosmos never checks out

Waxes and Wanes 

But every present

Lion King roars

Whisper of the Word

Whisper of the Wind

Those who care

Wear gratitude and wisdom 

Breathe 

with changing speed

Wisdom – HT Wagner – September 2019

In all her gentle breezes 

Takes us port to port

Like a plant

We grow

Port to port

Plantet to plantet 

Star to star

Ratcheting though time

All is 

Was and to be

From the foundation of time

We know not

Trust that the end will be Happy 

Bonded and Full of Grace-

Fix Our Scales for Cheating – HT Wagner – September 2019

Past

Present 

and Future

Saturn night is over

The healing has begun

Beauty surrounds

Favor is the rule of day

The Last now the First again

Healing

Hoping

Trusting the New Way of the Old Cross

The New Moon 

Days of yore 

Nights of frightful  sweats

Past

The New world awaits for us all

Finally 

Appetite for all things that nourish 

All life!

Mind Body and Soul 

On the Rise!!

Nullify – HT Wagner – September 2019

A lair

Unclean and unkept

Lust for energy ~  only to steel from others

Sees only self 

alter Ego a distant speck

Rejects all who offer change

Knows it all

in a Special way

Uses others to gain

Rejects those who offer change

not yet ready for Prime time~

only to white lies to preserve her ways of deception

Tunnel Vision to tomorrow

Yesterday is a burnt ember

Spent

No fuel to take to the next stage!

Riddled with deception and lies

The Kraft food ‘Modern’ cheese of the Psyche!

It the vision is not in the Tunnel

It is out of bounds!

Profundity – HT Wagner – October 2019

Wisdom

Depth and Indwelling

Thread  bare

and Lonesome ~ For what may never be

Everything I know-

~ I wear on my sleeve

Islands of Hope in a Sea of Sludge – HT Wagner – October 2019

the sludge of the Small Mind ~ Not able to love

Sludge of Selfishness, blame and fear

Akin to no one but their one Small mind

A prison ~ holding pattern to be-hold and wait

Spurning Brash boldness ~’In your face’ or not at all

March to my Music ~  It save me and keeps me from you ~

Music that has no sound ~ but Me

‘I will go to where they love me and accept me in my blind dysfunction’

They  appreciate  my martyrs heart!

Protecting what I am to be ~ or not

The Anti-Christ in me

Blind

Deaf and

Dumb

The unloveable blocked soul ~ Stuck in the Mud of Me~

Islands of Hope –

HT Wagner – October 2019

Say ‘yes’ to inconvenience 

Embrace other~

Empathy is breathed like fresh air

They live for otter (not necessarily me)

Their lives are clean and encumbered by hate and prepuce 

Gossip unknot and not necessary

Dead air in the Sea of Slurry

I once was blind ~ but now I See~

My One and only Love is the Presence of Thee 

An island in the Sludge Sea of Me 

Small Minds just bobble and bloat!

The Politically Correct 

A dying breed 

~ would not approve ~

The haters, presumers and deplorables They are!

and talk about it to the Comforters ~ who are willing to hear

Not the Holy Spirit of the Universe

The Mind of Christ 

The Prefrontal Fare-

Ode to Cats – HT Wagner – September – 2019

They need greens 

Just like us

or hair balls become the daily fare

Just like We

Acid reflex

Acid Rain

of the fake Carnival Food Fare

of Western Dysfunction Thought

How can we serve if barfing up our guts?

Take Pharma ~ temporary relief ?

While the Detoxing organs are slowly destroyed

Prometheus Bound 

~ liver grows back after Vulture Devour each night!

Dinosaur ~ destiny 

Life, Death and Rebirth – HT Wagner –September 2019

Constant theme in Creation

Tide go in and return 

Obey the Moon

The pull of tomorrow 

Rebuilt on the backs of yesterday

Pain and Sorrow 

Melt into joy and forgiveness

What waxes ~ also wanes

Breath Brings in the new

Exhale expels the spent 

God  ~ Who knew? – HT Wagner – October 2019

God  Exhales!

God Inhales ad new Civilizations become 

The Cycle repeated for all eternity

We are just ‘Dust’ in the Cosmic Wind

Breath of God and matter 

~ in Communion 

Dance with God or be damned 

Dust to dust ~

“And the LORD God formed man of the dust of the ground 

and breathed into his nostrils

the breath of life and man became a living soul.”

“It is the same way with the resurrection of the dead-

Our earthly bodies are planted in the ground when we die,

but our souls will be raised to live forever. 

Our bodies are buried in brokenness, but they will be raised in glory. 

They are buried in weakness, but they will be raised in strength

“In the sweat of the Holy face ~

We  eat bread (not Carnival factory bread) 

till He returns unto the ground ~ or to Medicare!

For out of it we were  taken ~ for dust we are

and in the end ~  unto dust we shall return.”

God is the Space in between matter ~and the earthen vessels

Sparks through stubble ~ Creation 

Earth worms to amend the clay

to make life possible for Creation

My Cares  – HT Wagner – October 2019

Scare me 

Dare me to Be what I could never be ~ On my own

It is in the Power of knowing ~ That we are ~

The power of thoughtful caring ~

Faith ~ That we become ~

The Power of Love ~ That binds our Soul to Oneness of the Cosmos-

When God Breathes – HT Wagner -2019

He  sends the Holy Spirit on a scavenger hunt-

When He sneezes ~  All will feel the pain!

When He coughs ~ The Dead are brought back to life!

When He forgives ~ it is a beautiful thing!

High Places

Let the chips fall where they may

Let the heads roll

and the teeth grind

the millstones sink the ship 

The rats flee- 

The Way ~ Unclear – HT Wagner – 2019

Trust 

Companionship

Faces set like Flint

Just hanging out until the next rain drop falls

How you make me feel ~ when you come looking to find fault~

The Anxious Ambivalent (Secure attachment ~ Broken) 

The Worlds of the Insecurely Attached

Not their fault

Just the Drama of Creation

How they make you feel?

Stressed

Anxious

At the end of a gun pointed to the temple ~

Ready to fire 

and find fault

Scanning to protect the only piece of Life’s Landscape 

It is all they know and own!

Alone 

Defensive

Others ‘comments’

Perceived Immediately has harsh criticism 

Take-Turns not an adaptive quality for the Hunter-Gathers

Relationships ~ Control

Manipulate 

or Destroy 

Judging  perceiving 

Doing the best they can with their prescribed filters 

How they make us feel~

Perpetually on-guard

Preparing (Cortisol) to fight or defend

Critical and Poking fun (demeaning) ~ ALL IN FUN! 

For them ~ Not others~

Unpleasant 

No Joy in watching the hater hate

The Judgers judge

The Gossipers Gossip

Ok to be negative and critical of all not exactly like them

This is Not My Home

My home is where my Heart is

Sacred 

Rare

The Final Test –

HT Wagner – October 2019

Here I am Lord

Now what are You going to do with me?

An earthworm without a path

A follower without a following

A Muse without music

A Mom without children

A Wife without a partner 

The Gospel speaks of these folk

But not in encouraging light

So-

We are ‘dust in the wind’

the Holy Spirt 

the Helper

And The Rains Came – HT Wagner – October 2019

In sheets of frozen haze

They came 

They conquered not

They did not prevail

The strength of the power of Will 

Washing 

Dissolving the insignificance  

Want and lack 

The thunder

The lighting

Abound – rebound

Surround-

To please the War Gods 

The Truth Seekers left standing 

That the Jokesters and Clowns adore

Eat the flesh of the bloody of bold being

They have their fun

But will loose in the end

When there is famine 

Everyone loses

Hunter’s trophy case

Western Doctors 

Faux healers with their bullets of pharma

Darts to throw

Look big

Throw rocks 

rockets

and deny 

The negative goes away

Peace at last

lasting peace 

Presence 

Power 

Where the Fireflies Fly –

HT Wagner –October 2019

Beyond  space and time

Beyond belief

Beyond expanse

the Place where no one knows to go

It his the Last Stop to freedom 

the Place that no mortal man knows

The  Breath

The Life

The meeting place for all that have game before-

and all that is to come-

Flash –

HT Wagner – October 2019

Super Cellular

Light of light

Darkness of the deeper dark

Life Altering

Life Creating

Live giving

Autum Mist – God is 

We are the matter – between droplets

the Space in between 

Exiting to Infinity-

Ego  –

HT Wagner – October -2019

When Ego Prevails 

and Alter Ego is aborted

Ego 

A  chrysalises 

the worm ~ that makes casting

Is Not the final destination

only a Wolf in sheep clothing

The Beast poised  to devour the Child

As the Woman labors 

Impotent

Lazy ~ closed minded

and a nudge 

Abhors ~ all things not Ego ~

The matter that matters not

Barley loaves and fishes prefrontal brain food

Gut-friendly foods 

Fruits 

Vegetables

and un-altered whole grain 

(that make the hair grow)(nonGMO)

Loves  the Faux foods that make the belly grow 

the tasty meats of dishonest enterprise

Lies that do not feed the Mind of Christ 

Empty 

Nothingness 

Ego ~ nobody 

The High and Mighty  –

HT Wagner – –October 2019

Above the fray?

They are the fray 

Ignoble 

Unschooled in kindness

Ego bound and driven to stake their lot

Their lot 

The barnyard 

They manger 

Where salvation began

Small Minds

Selfish to the core!

The projects they manage 

Go down in the ground

Where the little people stay

Only to be used for fodder to stoke the fire of their Ego 

Small Minds ~ remain in dust!

Woe to you!

The Weak ~ (Distorted Thinkers)  ~ 

HT Wagner – November 2019

Socrates  ~ ‘Shadows’ as realty!

When only perception ~

Real truth ~ brings them to their knees 

Cannot control ~ Anxious  Depressed 

– Must condemn the messenger-

Half human ~ half animal still- 

Trapped in the Small Mind of the Animal host

Blind, lame and deaf all at  one time

Separated from the Mind of Christ-

Resumes to send petitions to  Mary 

– Rosary Foreign beads that mean nothing!

The Midbrain (Corpus Coliseum)

Lives in the sphere  of Negative Distorted and unkind!

Esau’s soul mate

Perdition

Critical

Unholy

Unclean

Un happy – Longs for gratification and demeans others who cannot provide

Unschooled of the Higher Ways of of what is to come

Will change being LEFT BEHIND!               

When in Limbo~Limp –

HT Wagner – November 2019

When in hell – Keep Walking – Winston Churchill-

In the shadow of the stars and planets

Aligned to bring good fortune

or  not

Gods ’s Will~

There is a flood on the way?

The Truth will prevail

The lies of the Anti-Christ will melt into madness – oblivion 

Because the never were

The fundament brain  will implode and become the Mind of Christ

or not

They will be Left behind 

Chaff in the wind-

The Rosary is a Weapon for These Times –

HT Wagner – November 2019

a 20 minute mediation 

Work to stoke the fires and till the fields of today

Quantum thought work wonders

Create a new tomorrow 

Expression of faith, hope-

How Martha  becomes Mary  –

HT Wagner – November 2019

Martha

Born to Serve

She is there to please-

To Control what is not to be controlled

She listens not  to the beat of her own heart

Her mind s fettered to the Ways of the World

She marches lockstep to her Passion  

perceived

Her heart beats but to

Beats up  

To  notion of dogma

The Law

Not seeing other’s need to be saved

But her own earthly path

Mary is docile 

and her heart is open

Her mind is willing to listen

Her actions speak volumes

Martha’s view is from this earthly space

Closed and locked

Mary sees the cosmos 

Trusts

Has faith in the end point-

and her passion is to walk there-

Along with the Passion of Christ and His Wounded Mother Mary-

What Upsets Me –

HT Wagner – November 2019

Irritation

Lack of flow with  the Cosmos

Fundamentalist thinking 

Thinking ~ all other are from Off!

Closed  Minds

Hearts made of stone and not Silly Putty

Forever Me

Nice people that everyone loves

But cannot see into their DARK HEARTS

the grinning ‘me only’ mind of the lower fare-

A Litany of Beliefs –

HT Wagner – –November 2019 – a Prayer

I believe and know my thoughts create

I believe in an all-Powerful Cosmic Entity 

the Cosmos in its entirety and everlasting presence

In Concretion to this Force

I relinquish all control and accept what is sent for me to dwell in

and on

I believe God will make right any of my decisions based on the truth that lies in my Heart

I believe We will overcome PTSD and GMO with a sense of humor and everlasting love

I believe our family will be a Perfect family ~ Much like St Amalyia and St Hedwig,St Henry ~ nobles of the 10th century.

I   believe to stay whole and happy lies in charity (from my 10 centuries of Charitable ancestry) ~ DNA does not lie

I believe Adam (and Francis) will rise again ~ after their Death on the Cross

I believe the stars and planets are precise, Holy and Creation bound

I am just an earthworm amending clay

I believe ~ God may not be opening Doors for me ~ but He could if it was in His Will

I believe in respect, reverence and everlasting connections  

Fear Steals all the Good that Might Have Been

Fear of the Unknown 

A test likely

To upgrade software to the next level

When fear is rampant 

Irrational 

But seems like it is eminent 

It is likely just another test 

A cross to bear 

A Passion of sorts

Cross-checking the choice made a the Dawn of Time

The Night Before Christmas –

HT Wagner – December 2019

Is where I intend to live all my life

In the Shadows ~ That illuminate the blind

That frolic in the Autumn Mist of memories past

Past on to the lovers and lonely 

We are but a notion of God

Home

A place that always was

A place that can never be held 

A place that is forever now

Parents prepare us to sustain 

Sustenance they give freely

Our nurture is broadcast minute by minute

Like God  sending instruction perpetually

Received by those who long and listen for instructions & guidance

A Bucket List –

HT Wagner – December 2019

An Intention to share

A prayer for tomorrow

A wish 

A dare

A prophet’s nod

A way of the Cross

or not

It is easy to conceive

an below the line and

Hard to defend a prayer so rare

Too early 

To far out

But real not the less

The least thought 

No the less 

A sparkling piece of the creation puzzle

Only to be brought down from the Control Tower 

At the perfectly syncopated time

Trust in the Way 

In all things

Let nothing disturb you 

Stay

Remain

Anxious 

Disturbances

Steal all the good that might have been

Allow it to come to you

on the Wings of a Dove

the Holy Spirit

The Breath of God- 

He Sets the Moon, Planets and Stars  in Place –

HT Wagner – December 2019

Rare Cosmic Bond

 Endures forever

Only the stars and planets know for sure

He guides them as we pray ~ Prayer arrows 

~ Navigators for the stars

the Wise men knew 

Diligent and Drawn to the Truth 

The Followed the bright Light

and bright Gold, Frankincense and Myrrh

Not a superstition – But the science of God

They did not worship the sun, planets- 

merely obeyed the map

Never lost

there are 2 ways to think~

Idolators – detracted by dogma 

Fixed Action Pattern ~ unholy 

– Refuse to allow the mystery to unfold

Becoming blind and lame  

and deaf to the Word

Superstition  (All superstition is negative) if honored 

Unfounded belief in Good – Bad luck 

Rejection and not following through with 

the opposite  ‘science ‘

Knowing that ‘lucky’ is just the Science of God’s favor

Knowing that ‘knowing’ is God whispering- 

Knowing that grace, chi are the same breath of the Spirit 

It is in trusting our ‘knowing’ that gives us confidence

and not myths and fears,

that do not allow us to follow a spiritual path 

The science of the Spirit 

the Anatomy of love – grows and embellishes ‘other’

the Anatomy of fear – negative and critical (complainers)

That stop grace in its tracks 

Making praying to Mary a ‘superstition’

‘All roads lead to Rome’

All prayers (even to Mary and the Saints) – 

May be a crooked path ~ But are not lost or wasted

They Lead to God! 

Demeanors, judgers, gossips and haters

Criticize others – (all who are not like them)

Their religion becomes a  Superstition – A Mindless Fixed Action pattern 

Already decided ~ without an opportunity to discern~

It is all they know and choose to choose-

They crucify with negative words

Always ready to judge and hold grudges 

and are often unaware of their toxic, gentle, unholy barbs-

Aimed to build their unholy ways and

Scaffolding for the Inner Child who is destined to 

Remain half a human

The better half ~ The Hippocampus 

the guard of the Autobiographical Memory 

On the Right hand side of the Father

(The Cerebral Cortex)

The Mind of Christ thinkers know compassion and empathy 

ability to understand and share the feelings of another-

Gladness for the Upright Heart –

HT Wagner – December 2019

Next giant leap of Mankind

The pioneering Holy Spirt

Just another link to God

Chi flows when navigate with our mind

the Universe shrinks with thoughts 

Affirming 

Detracting 

Same energy 

Same ability to create our reality  – Good or bad

Holy or unholy

Choice to remain animal  

or reign with the gods

 The conversation changed

Returning home

Only to find our Heart-

Where Folks Meet their Doom –

HT Wagner – December 2019

When they face their self

With unfiltered eyes 

No presumption

No lies

A frightening reality sets in 

Launch a life boat

Prayer and fasting 

Really desire to get off this ship

Little  shop of horrors 

Listless

Me and My ego clash 

Dash 

Dart 

to find Center

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