The Seals-End Times! The Horsemen of the Apocalypse-Revelation 6-End Times-The Pale Horse-Homiletics and God Space

The Horsemen of the Apocalypse-Revelation 6-End Times

The Pale Horse – Homiletics of the Seals-

-Dee Hinkle January 28, 2014

Revelation 6-End Times-N.I.V.

 1 I watched as the Lamb opened the first of the SEVEN SEALS. ‘Then I heard one of the four living creatures say in a voice like thunder, “Come!”   2 I looked, and there before me was a WHITE HORSE! Its rider held a bow, and he was given a crown, and he rode out as a conqueror bent on conquest. 

Homiletics-Processed WHITE sugar, WHITE refined flour (body SEES as sugar when over-milled) (Heat-altering Pasteurizing Dairy(PUTRID with Dead Bacteria, Cortisol from abusive factory farms where they are fed GMO grain (not pastured) & Roasting raw nuts (Unclean)  ~

Processing DESTROYS LIFE in Modern Processed Factory GMO Altered (Heat & Over-Milling) Foods~GIVEN a BOW-weapon to destroy life.

A ‘CROWN ‘or the PREFRONTAL BRAIN -THE MIND OF CHRIST) 

Mind of Christ destroyed by the Modern processes above!

 3 When the Lamb opened the SECOND SEAL, I heard the second living creature say, “Come!” 4 Then another horse came out, a fiery red one. Its rider was given power to take peace from the earth and to make people kill each other. To him was given a large sword TO SLAUGHTER-

HomileticsRed Meat fed with GMO & Modern Meat processing, ‘DISEASE CAUSING’ ~ Not Pastured-raised!

 5 When the Lamb opened the THIRD SEAL, I heard the third living creature say, “Come!” I looked & there before me was a BLACK horse! Its rider was holding a pair of scales in his hand. 6 Then I heard what sounded like a voice among the four living creatures, saying, “Two pounds[a] of wheat for a day’s wages,[b] and six pounds[c] of barley for a day’s wages,[d] and do not damage the oil and the wine!”

Homiletics-The BLACK (or DARK BROWN HORSE) IMMIGRATION or Slavery-Prejudice or ‘White’ Mentality

– The last will be first, the first will be last.   Matt 20:16

Race evolution to bring about the evolution of the Mind of Christ -the Prefrontal brain & Spirituality. CNS & Prefrontal BRAIN built by ‘day’s wages’ or ‘Daily Bread’ (not Modern Processed ‘disease-causing’ White Bread – Processing removing up to 50% of needed plant protein-

 7 When the Lamb opened the FOURTH SEAL, I heard the voice of the fourth living creature say, “Come!” 8 It looked & there before me was PALE.  Its rider was named Death,-(2020 Pandemic Covid 19) 

and Hades was following close behind him. They were given power over a fourth of the earth to kill by sword, famine and plague & by the wild beasts of the earth.

Homiletics(Pale from the Famine of Modern CAFO-GMO Factory processed foods)-GMO not banned in US – but the rest of the world

WW II  Industrial Factory methods

& the OVER-MILLED white grains, white refined

& PASTEURIZED white Factory dairy (Dead bacteria, fed GMO altered grains, cortisol from abusive Factory Barns)

& OVER-HEATED VEGETABLE OILS-Omega 3 chemistry changes to INFLAMMATORY Omega 6-

1/4 of the earth-Western Civilization & Western medical culture (‘Sub-Saharan-like’  diet of processed, pasteurized & fast convenience foods, resulting in  IMMUNE SYSTEM to BECOME IMPOTENT & kill by disease,  along with the fast processed food that will distract and distort & destroy the prefrontal minds causing mental illness.

IMAGE of Pale horse – Lego – ‘Monster Fighters’ toy- Rider is X-Ray-like skeletonal image-

 9 When he opened the FIFTH SEAL- I saw under the altar the souls of those who had been slain because of the word of God and the testimony they had maintained. 10 They called out in a loud voice, “How long, Sovereign Lord, holy and true, until you judge the inhabitants of the earth and avenge our blood?” 11 Then each of them was given a WHITE ROBE & they were told to wait a little longer, until the full number of their fellow servants, their brothers and sisters,[e] were killed just as they had been.

Homiletics(Holocaust, Abortion – Nazi destruction good devout people) All those on earth who chose the Lord as the standard by which they would live & maintained it all their lives Jews under Nazi or Oppressive rulers…

 12 I watched as he opened the SIXTH SEAL. There was a great earthquake. The SUN TURNED BLACK-like sackcloth made of goat hair, the whole moon turned blood red, 13 and the stars in the sky fell to earth, as figs drop from a fig tree when shaken by a strong wind. 14 The heavens receded like a scroll being rolled up, and every mountain and island was removed from its place. 15 Then the kings of the earth, the princes, the generals, the rich, the mighty, and everyone else, both slave and free, hid in caves and among the rocks of the mountains. 16 They called to the mountains and the rocks, “Fall on us and hide us from the face of him who sits on the throne and from the wrath of the Lamb! 17 For the great day of their[g] wrath has come, and who can withstand it?”

Homiletics-Sun Turned Black -(Total eclipse of the Sun – December 4, 2021 The total lunar eclipse that will occur on Wednesday, May 26, 2021 will be visible across the western U.S. A “blood moon” happens when Earth’s moon is in a total lunar eclipse. While it has no special astronomical significance. This is known as a total lunar eclipse, or a “blood moon.” In 2020, we’ll observe four penumbral lunar eclipses. … If the moon clipped even a part of the inner shadow, called the umbra, these events would be called partial lunar eclipses.

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Chapter Summary

This chapter typifies the dramatic, heavily symbolic description of end-times events for which Revelation is famous. 

John sees a series of visions corresponding to Jesus opening the first six seals of the scroll He received in chapter 5.

The first four seals unleash four horsemen, respectively symbolizing a world leader, war, famine, and death. 

The fifth seal reveals the prayers of martyrs pleading with God to avenge their deaths. The sixth seal unleashes massive natural disasters. 

In response, the people of the world cower in fear, admitting that they are suffering under the wrath of God.

Revelation 6:1–8 introduces John’s vision of Jesus, the Lamb, opening the first four of seven seals. 

He also heard one of the four living creatures issue the thunderous command, ”Come!” 

What John saw next was the first calamity to strike the earth in the tribulation: 

seven – (end time – final days) years of judgment following the rapture of the church. 

There is no way to know whether the four horsemen follow each other sequentially or ride forth simultaneously. If they follow each other sequentially, we cannot know how much time elapses between their rides. The judgments appear to belong to the first half of the tribulation. However, some interpreters believe the sixth seal may be an exception.

John sees a series of visions corresponding to Jesus opening the first six seals of the scroll He received in chapter 5.

Four horsemen of the apocalypse, in Christianity, the four horsemen who, according to the book of Revelation (6:1–8), appear with the opening of the first four of the seven seals that bring forth the cataclysm of the apocalypse

The first horseman, a conqueror with a bow and crown, rides a white horse, which scholars sometimes interpret to symbolize Christ or the Antichrist; the second horseman is given a great sword and rides a red horse, symbolizing war and bloodshed; the third carries a balance scale, rides a black horse, and symbolizes famine; and the fourth horseman rides a pale horse and is identified as Death.

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Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse-

Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse, artwork by Peter von Cornelius, 1845.

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God Space Poems

Free Fall – No Parachute  

HT Wagner 2007

Invisible Wholeness

Background Deity 

Intelligent Wind

Steering my craft

Guiding

Piloting

Caring

In charge of my being ?

Leading me on 

Making me think it was me 

and not He

Now I Know the Meaning of Small. 

God For a Day  Dee Hinkle – Thursday, February 28, 2019

Let me be You for a day 

& You can 

Because You are God!

I would see to the cogs of creation

I would count all the sparrows

Check the crops 

Remember the poor 

And answer their prayers 

One by one

Within them is the sacred mystery of creation

I would round up the thieves and show 

Them Your face

They would see honesty and overflow with humiliation

I would broadcast grace over every field

Where the Godgerm are budding

Remembering – grace looks like a cross

Too heavy to bear

The paradox

The test

Faith and knowing that

When a cross is presented

It will be proceeded and followed

By prosperity…—God’s payment

Remembering Sleepovers:

AM prayers Sleepover-2006

Nana slept on the sofa-not with Joshua on his palate in her room.

Joshua Descending from his  2nd floor lair

“Nana, You have a Ghost in your House!”

Hmm..

‘What did He say?’

‘Please help me to know Him’

Hmm..

Puff  Joshua, Afraid of the dark…

(Joshua now in high school…Honor student, Latin scholar 

& All-state  swimmer as a Freshman) 

Joshua Descends 

Tonight I (Puff) went into  went into her cave

Waited for Jackie Papers 

But he came no more…

Tears fell like green scales

Knowing that childhood had been exhaled…

(Puffed out)

Spent 

Was the loneliness & fear 

loveliness of innocence now 

Filling now his cup of greenness 

His honor & integrity will now become his own

& not necessarily that of those Who are shepherding him…

His mind will rule his reason…

Will morality be a friend to his soul?…

And foe to his ego – Puff

Or will the Ego Beast bark loudly

Claiming his soul as Ego Turf

Letting go is not always easy..

Joshua  Ascends-The Star Wars begin….

Will Luke want to follow the Beast or Fight

When Darth Vader Calls

Will he put on the garb of Luke

That I sewed for him 

or fall to the dark side of the Force

The dark side has no “SON’

To  give him energy & 

Be his spiritual ‘ground zero’ for his darkest hours

Will The point on his Ego be the Jumping off point?

closest to the ignition point – the Alter Ego

Courage to do the right thing

and claim his birthright

Birthright  only  won by well-crafted control of his Ego

Whose very make up…

 Stands not for any violation of the truth

Innate is the gold core of truth….

Life’s process becomes …

Tonight Puff went into Her Cave

Waited for Jackie Papers –

But he came no more

Tears fell like green scales

Knowing that his childhood had been exhaled

(Puffed out)

Spent was the loneliness & fear 

Now loveliness of innocence-Filling now his cup of greenness 

His honor & integrity will now become his own

& not necessarily that of those who are shepherding him

His mind will rule his reason

Will morality be a friend to his soul

& foe to his ego Puff

Or will the Ego Beast bark loudly

Claiming his soul as Ego Turf

The Star Wars will begin

Will Luke want to follow the Beast or fight

When Darth Vader Calls

Will he put on the garb of Luke

or fall to the dark side of the Force

The dark side has no “SON’

To  give him energy & 

Be his spiritual ground zero for his darkest hours

Will his Ego 

Earthly being closest to the ignition point 

Courage to do the right thing

and claim his birthright

Birthright  

Won by orderliness

Making a disciplined soul

Constitution & character

Cannot allow violation of the truth

Innate is the gold core of truth

Life’s process become-

Carving away the earthly layer,

to reveal the molten keepsake within

a nugget 

Repeated circumcisions 

Continual, incessant & contestant

Labor pains 

The desolation 

Agony of the world denied

Will finally yield the tenderness and sweet victory

of the enduring Infinite 

After his ‘now i lay me down to sleep’ prayer

We too discern the inane 

My last thoughts for his night prayer

Will he  have the will to always to obey

& the courage to do “the right (& usually) hard thing”

We – more comfortable responding to ‘call of the wild’ with 

Accustom behavior serves if good & be true

Having a gold-souled intellect

to rethink the thoughts reflexive

Knee jerk 

Distractions that keep minds 

in the Cave-To Reshape them 

For existence in a higher plane

to serve as a storm troopers all

Remembering Sleepovers:

AM prayers Sleepover-2006

Nana slept on the sofa-not with Joshua on his palate in her room.

Grandson  Descending from his  2nd floor lair

Jacob’s ladder

“Nana, You have a Ghost in your House!”

Hmm..

‘What did He say?’

‘Please help me to know Him’

Hmm..

Puff  Joshua, Afraid of the dark…

(Joshua now in high school…Honor student, Latin scholar 

& All state  swimmer as a Freshman) 

Joshua Descends 

Tonight I (Puff) went into  went into her cave

Waited for Jackie Papers 

But he came no more…

Tears fell like green scales

Knowing that childhood had been exhaled…

(Puffed out)

Spent 

Was the loneliness & fear 

loveliness of innocence now 

Filling now his cup of greenness 

His honor & integrity will now become his own

& not necessarily that of those Who are shepherding him…

His mind will rule his reason…

Will morality be a friend to his soul?…

And foe to his ego – Puff

Or will the Ego Beast bark loudly

Claiming his soul as Ego Turf

Letting go is not always easy..

Grandson  Ascends-The Star Wars begin….

Will Luke want to follow the Beast or Fight

When Darth Vader Calls

Will he put on the garb of Luke

That I sewed for him 

or fall to the dark side of the Force

The dark side has no “SON’

To  give him energy & 

Be his spiritual ‘ground zero’ for his darkest hours

Will The point on his Ego be the Jumping off point?

closest to the ignition point – the Alter Ego

Courage to do the right thing

and claim his birthright

Birthright  only  won by well-crafted control of his Ego

Whose very make up…

 Stands not for any violation of the truth

Innate is the gold core of truth….

Life’s process becomes …

Lovely Lady

My mother

Hail Mary

Holy Mother

My model

Where would I  be without You?

Lost & Lowly

A worm I am

But a friendly one

Only wanting to make compost

In Your Sacred 

Holy Garden.

The dirt to mine

My pay 

Your Presence 

to Plant seeds 

Buckets of Water to thirsty horses

Stubborn they are

My bothers & sisters

My friends 

 Pilgrims along the way…

I breather Your air

I exhale my remorse …

Open my heart into your sacred Heart 

On Fire…

He Asked Me & I Obeyed 

As is He loved me…

Lock step His Way…

Powerful it was

Powerful it is 

The Giving Love

That only God can give

The Breathing love that only God can Breath

The Bonding Love

The Attachment to the Soul to the Eternal Flame

Of Being

No one knows

or Is really to love

Only He choose you

When you least accept

Ready to receive or not..

Ready to love & give 

or not’

On  call 24 x 7

Or just hold mr for a moment loner…

It is  

In this space that I can live

Thrive 

& Be

It is in this space

That I desire to be…

Monday, April 23, 2018

  1. Daily Reading June 17,  2020
  2. Mercury Direct (From June 17- July 26)  Vesta, Venus 12 house lights up to end of July Brings the truth out –  things have become more fluid & flow – breath -pant quick – deep sleep- Hidden truths emerge –
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You hide them in the shelter of your presence from the plottings of men;

You screen them within your abode

from the strife of tongues.

  1. Gratitude Poem

Hidden in the Shelter of Your Wings

Pressing forward in YourTruth

Knowing 

Money no where in sight

It is not money that I crave

But to please you 

Like Elijah

Say something

Let it be harsh

or gently

Your Way of the Cross

Has always been my Way

From the Foundation of time

The tripartite Mind with the Holy Spirt 

In toe

in demand

always before us Lighting the Way

Elijah is a Hebrew In Hebrew the meaning of the name Elijah is: Jehovah is God. Famous bearer: the Old Testament prophet Elijah. Elijah had faith to send his servant to the sea seven times to keep looking for the rain cloud. He was certain that it would come. Then, when the tiniest cloud appeared on the horizon, he knew that there was heavy rain coming and coming quickly.

Saturday, October 1, 2011 

First Friday & First Saturday-11:00 PM Prayers

Holy Space

Prayer

Layer upon layer

Waiting for the Gate to open

The air is thin

Ordinary and plain spoken

Heart broken

The touch comes from nowhere

The Living Presence shapes in the form of a gift

The air changes to amber

Listening

The sounds peal

Hearing the tumult 

The upheaval move near

Knowing the soft loud rustle

The diminutive-almost Imperceptible Force 

Settles in my soul

Nestles next to my being

Present in every way

My place in this prayer is suspended

Divinity inundates

Like a butterfly

Hold only for a heartbeat

But once held

Can never be the Same

Would walk a thousand miles

to hold the Butterfly again

Deus Always Love Eternal

How God Works

When you least expect

You find Him

Genderless

Tall & striking

a Column of Lightening 

a Thunderbolt

Autumn Mist

A Presence Profound…

Desires are mutual & eternal…

It is nice to know that you have a friend…

Who likes you as you are…

Behind the facade of Ego Small Mind

He lives as a hermit Alone & in love

24 x 7

Your inside is his outside…

He is all desire…

His foundation began with time & Ends with eternity…

To deny Him Is to deny your being…

To know him Is to sense His presence in all…

To feel shame for not knowing Him deeper…

To feel disconnected when He is so near…

So abiding & unfaltering…

Father of all…

Words alone cannot explain this measured connection…

He has favorites & wakes them often to kibitz …

They are in the ‘driver’s seat’ of creation…

They know where they are going….

Stop at nothing…

Press to know Him more – Intense, heartfelt, deep-seated..

Penetratingly perceptive,

Profound is their existence…

As Small Minded Ego slowly pales into the clay…

Collapsing the Small Mind & growing into God…

Egomania is seen in all of its glory..

Nothingness…

Sensuality shrinks & finally descends …

Ego trappings

Are mere ornaments, temporal apparatus….

Equipment –

Geared to protect the soul from exposure of all things that matter not…

Until they become the main purpose of existence..

A bit like having a car & using it only to ‘Run Over Bugs’…

Instead of ‘driving its way back to find You’

With a burning love inside…

Small Minds hear what they want to hear & disregard the Covenant

Then & always will…

Burn with love for itself

Remains in itself…

The soul is an ‘added adaption’ that ego cannot comprehend…

No comprehension

No point in embracing it…

Ego knows better…

Stiff-necked-

Knows it all & will hear but not receive other words … 

Deuteronomy 4: 1, 9

Only take heed, and keep your soul diligently, lest you forget the things which your eyes have seen  & lest they depart from your heart all the days of your life; 

make them known to your children and your children’s children —

Matthew 5: 17 – 19

The Fulfillment of the Law

17 “Do not think that I have come to abolish the Law or the Prophets; 

I have not come to abolish them but to fulfill them. 

18 For truly I tell you, until heaven and earth disappear, not the smallest letter, not the least stroke of a pen, will by any means disappear from the Law until everything is accomplished. 

19 Therefore anyone who sets aside one of the least of these commands and teaches others accordingly will be called least in the kingdom of heaven, but whoever practices and teaches these commands will be called great in the kingdom of heaven.

How Great Thou Art

The Earth 

Our Mother

Shifts on her axis

To signal…

We are going the Wrong 

Long direction

We are in retrograde

Now retracing our steps

To understand

What has brought us off course 

Not our choice

But ignorance  

& desire that keep us in poverty…

Not able to create positive 

But to demean with the lower order of man

The lower order not God – But Man

Stiff necked

Obstinate

Knows only Ego

Self

No space left for God 

Out of His Way

The mysticL 

MAGICAL – Way of the Cross

I AM

The Grateful One

Wrapped in swaddling clothes

Not Foil

The armor that protects

Sheaths the Way of the Cross

Secular Ways swindle

Trick the mind into thinking 

What is right but is wrong…

Holy Name of Jesus

Reigns 

Brings the Infidels to their knees

Allows trust to be

The Way of the Cross today…

Only the High Way

I Feel Nothing – for the 1st time (Bono)

Where have You gone

In my darkest hour?

Paralyzed by emptiness 

Left me adrift 

In a sea so still

Wind dead  & motionless

Hot July day – 

suffocating & wanting rest 

no resolution to be found –

Stumbling blindly in the dark 

Through the thicket of well-meaning souls

who know Sadness & single 

Solo – without companions

All begging  for space

Attention to themselves only

Thoughts encapsulated in placebo

But they still work to create

I know You sometimes

& sometime not

What matters –

Where would I be if I fell between between Your hands 

Obsidian, igneous rock occurring as a natural glass formed by the rapid cooling of viscous lava from volcanoes. Obsidian is extremely rich in silica (about 65 to 80 percent), is low in water, and has a chemical composition similar to rhyolite. Obsidian has a glassy lustre and is slightly harder than window glass.

Obsidian | Igneous Rock, Composition, & Uses | Britannica

Isolation

Freedom from fear

Fight or Flight

No where to go but up

Show them

Know them

Hold them for all eternity 

Modern fire 

Hearts on fire

The Blessed 

The Holy 

All the same

Where does it all come from 

& where does it all go?

To hell in a hand basket or 

to the Mind of God ?

Jesus Knew the Small Mind of Man

Easy to read a Small mind

With no access to the Prefrontal Mind of Christ

Christ Consciousness

thought the Hippocampus – 

Narrow Gate to the Autobiographical Memory 

On the ‘Right Hand Side of the Father’ 

Disease Produced by Negative Quantum particles

Can be left behind in old mind

Pick up mat & walk in the Light of a Positive Mind

Disease is chaff – intended to protect 

&  left with the food

When negative is absorbed 

Spiritual food that should be willowed – 

Along with the habituated dementing

Mocking of all those not like us

Poking fun – only to become tumor filler

Willowed & not left with the food 

Spiritual food – It is not 

only Filler for a tumor 

a Land fill in the Mind of a malformed psyche 

Lord of the Worlds

He comes to make us whole 

He is within-

Home is found in others-

The foundations of home within myself 

& find there were no roots more intimate than those between a mind and body that have decided to be whole.’

We are 

Who we allow ourselves to be

Lord of the Worlds 

Come to me & make me whole again 

Rupi Kaur-

Tuesday, September 22, 2020 1:30 am

My Blue Heaven Fats Domino

When whippoorwills call

When evening falls

& the days are cold & dark

A spark cannot be seen

The embers have lost their glow

Memories of the past

Haunt & hang about

Like vultures – waiting to clean up the remains of the day

Where have all the flowers gone

Long time passing 

Creation slows to a halt

Longing to be happy in My blue heaven-

Only a Holding pattern to allow creation to begin again.

My Heart is Overwhelmed

What more can I say…

It is He who calls me

It is He who says my name

Birthed me on the day of tomorrow

I am there

Yesterday

Today 

Tomorrow

You are my Lord,

My Savoir

My Hope

My love..

Are You Done with Me?

My life is Your life

Or Nothing at all 

Take me

Break me

It is Your call

Create in me 

& my  charges

a new life

Never let me stray 

Listen to yo every whisper

Jupiter & Saturn shine on my life

You are the Way

The Way of the Cross

Rocket ship to the Moon

Like an astronaut 

Feeling anxious 

Systems not needed

Shutting down 

Anticipating new frontiers

Encapsulated in fortress of the mind

The Mind of Christ

Sculpted over time

By the Master Designer

Engineer 

Creative Genius of Creation 

Knowing the target 

the Goal to create

Trusting 

Feeling no fear

Knowing the middle uncertain 

Problems to solve

Hurdles to hurl over 

Knowing the end 

Will be happy & whole

Share an Original  Poem with Sr Beatrice 

A Nun  – 

About Mary 

Mary my mother

Jesus mother too

If you pray to her

She will pray for you

Forgot the 2nd verse

Her response

‘Where did you copy this from?’

Determination to Hear Myself

Knowing inside 

Others will reject & mock

Giving myself permission to be the me

Intellectualized 

Gatherings of time

Old Stuck Energy-

Felt blocked 

Rock in the river – chip at the rock Freudian analyst or deepen the flow 

Because the permission may not be given

Deepening flowing past- 7 syllables 

Did you work something with God that you can co-create?

Small Shaft of Light

Life gets messy

Unavoidable 

Churchill when it become hell

Keep walking 

Acts

be persistent whether it is convenient or inconvenient

Uncomfortable 

Without air

Pause to reflect & breathe 

Take 5 or 15

Just take time to breathe in the Holy Spirt 

The Assistant 

The Game Changer 

The Breath of God 

Cellular Saving Grace 

Breathe in grace

& breathe out negativity

Nothingness

& all things that take away from the Moment of God

The Now

Allow space for life to form out of nothing

The ‘half time’ of the Cosmos

Cosmic Event

Creation at it best

Needless suffocation  when Breathe become life

Profound~

Stepped Outside to See the Moon Wednesday, May 6, 2020

the sky was cloudy

Spotted a bright area & wondered if the Moon was behind

Waited

Watches & the crowd of clouds

pated the ‘red sea’

for a few seconds the Moon 

almost full 

Appareled like a phantom ship in the Cosmos

Bidding Good night

Tame my Breath & breath in me

the living life of eternity

Take my life & use it 

to Abuse the Anti-Christ

& Infidels 

& Idols that we we love to adore

That dispel the one true God who made us

Blind

Lame & Ignorant 

We are

& will be until eyes are open to the light of the Mind of Christ

Whole lives in the darkness of the tripartite create brain to 

to Navigate the road to heaven 

or all that is not earth.y fare

Boring, taxing, lowly & without sight 

Sound hearing or feeling for the Spirit

It is where the Infields  find rest 

& respite & worship their earthly idols

Those not chose to bear the Cross of Eternity

Love to be at ease & savor the fruits of the earth

only  to be denied access to the Eternal Flame – 

The Life in Christ

The AM Mist 

Mist in the morning

Like Puff  in the Morning Mist

Mist in the Autumn

This Descends on the sleepy world 

To remind us the He is everywhere

Here to cover

Here to be 

Here to heal

My octane 

Why not

He has nothing  to do 

But to exist min the Cosmos 

He  Love

Breathes love

How He loves is the story of Live

Living, Loving & being in he Being 

No ‘set way to be’

Only grace

Love

& Others

The Far Away God So Close

The Divine Presence

The Autumn Mist

The Great IM

We are the clay suspend 

In the flow 

Flow the Chi of the living God

The Sacred Space in Between the Flow 

Of Grace

Chi, the guardian spirit or God

Where we find God

Not that of Moses

but that of the Christ

The  Breath of the Holy Spirit

On Pentecost day….

Chi hovera 

Like  a  Dove

Peace

The Great Amen

The Fallen Species

Becomes the Chosen Few

The Engine of Creation

The Heart 

& Soul of Matter

Man

Created to be the Chariot

The Tabernacle of the Most High

 God on Steroids

Only to listen & obey..

Done with the Ego

Fenito

Final

Finoshed 

Spirit

Gone with the Wind

Wounded

But still alive

Died to the World of Created Man

& Born to the Spirit

Who was always there

Covered with the armor

of the created world

No longer blind

But conscious

to the new realty 

of Tomorrow

Without the staff of today…

The senses of St John

That are jettisoned 

No loner needed

Become a burden 

A tax 

No longer needed 

To Survive

To thrive..

The Wings

Left Wing

Rigt wing 

Extremes 

that are not in touch with the Heart of the Matter

The Heart & Mind of Christ 

Then I start to ruminate!

Habituated behavior serves if good & be true…

Having a gold souled intellect

to rethink the thoughts reflexive

Knee jerk

that keep our minds in the cave

Reshape them 

so they can exist in a higher plant

to serve as a storm trooper

It takes much well disciplined training

Cliff Rocks

Sediment layers at the bottom of a river

To a shelf for moss & lichen to grow upon

For the deer to forage 

For the creeping creatures to seek sanctuary

Anchor for the tree roots of life’s storms

Bedrock

The essence, core bedrock of all life

To be, we seek sound footing

The garments of life

Devised by disguise 

To trap a weary victim

One, not so cunning and sly

The infrastructure  dictates the outcome

Daily Bread is the  indicator of the quality of construction 

A frugal diet eaten in in poverty 

Is a house of cards or sand

A frugal diet eaten in the poverty of industrial farming

Where shelf-life and profit 

Is not unlike that of Sub Sahara

Differing only in that taste 

An intrinsic mind filter

Rudimentary 

Drive the culture of tasty grain fed, over stressed (internal & external hormones) meat 

& pasteurized  over-heated food 

Especially  dairy

Feeding the Basal Intrinsic Mind (Hunter-Gather)

& all of the aggressive  tendencies, selfishness 

&dysfunctional society

Monkeys discard the peel (with 2.5 nutrients)

And eat the sweet core only.

Just like fast and processed food.

Not many monkeys are rocket scientists, architect tall building…

The Miracle Brain (Midbrain (Monkey Mind Integration), Prefrontal, Cerebral cortexes)

Getting Close to the Cross

It is an enigma

A paradox

A contradiction

Of what matters not

What matters is the Soul Space

What matters not is the Ego lair

Layer upon layer

We move closer to infinity

Far beyond the depths from which we were wrought

 The hill & valleys of terrain

That fold into existence on earth

 To the hills – the Dura Mater (tough mother)

Rock

Arachnoid Mater (spidery cushion mother)  

The atmosphere

Pia Mater(soft mater) interfaces with the blood

Responsible for nourished the brain

Forest & plants

Cerebrospinal fluid – the sea

Tired of Me Lord?

I make your Cross harder to bear

By not carrying my weight

Toting my soul

In it fragile state

Know that any movement to the direction of the physical senses

Grace displaced

Lost & not to be replaced

It is so heard to explain 

The Intrinsic Mind proclaims

Barks orders

Relentless vigilance to guard the Ego

I don’t want to go there

“Most people, sometime in their lives, stumble across truth. And most jump up, brush themselves off, and hurry on about their business as if nothing had happened.”–Sir Winston Churchill

Frozen 

Frozen pines

They don’t die

They don’t grow!

Frozen Minds

They don’t die 

& they don’t grow

Paralyzed 

Uninspired

Hardened as Stone

Bone-Brittle 

& Broke 

Groans gasping for air

Airborne

Forlorn habits of old

Clutch

Cling

Bring to the dead-ended road 

Of what might have been.

The decomposing flesh of the psyche

See nothing new

Feel feelings of habits of the past 

that no longer serve

The field of the comfort zone for the lost & lonely

Is this choice?

Free will of the Now

or what we chose when incarnated at the foundation of time?

The Drama of creation plays out

Ruminates

Resounds with Pathos & Pollyanna

The Shell of our Soul

Seams turned inside out

Only to be reborn 

Hoping fo a Second Chance to prove our humanity 

Ego or Compassion

Free will 

To turn the other cheek 

Or run & hide.

Sunday, March 3, 2019 ~ 8 AM

**  Heaven Has a Front Porch Swing

Made by a carpenter~ Henry 

Each sundown they wait & remain

Henry smoking his Camel

& Evelyn 

Gifted with an iPad-

streaming ‘Days of our Lives’

1 PM every day 

She was faithful ~

Along with 6 AM walk to Mass.

Wednesday, January 9, 2019 6:30 PM

And why do I do this?

I TOO HAVE A DREAM…

Sometimes I dream & imagine the I am climbing on Bill’s Motorcycle (my Godson Nephew-Who was Left alone to the Mercy  of Fast & CAFO-GMO  processed – convenience  foods – (not unlike many singles today!) 

In my dream –  we take off on the New York Expressway….

Driving fast – 100 mph, 120, 130 – then, out of nowhere a concrete barrier…

We are both decapitated – Like John the Baptist…

I Awake & Reality returns – 

I am still alive & Billy drove himself to eternity..

After a divorce in 2002, the 10 years of FAST & Convenience store foods… GMO, Heat-altered GMO-FED DAIRY Ice Cream &Over-Milled Donuts-loosing hair & back stenosis..

His brilliant & talented mind became anxious & depressed …

After a ‘death sentence’ of 4 rounds of Rehab…(fed ‘Institutional’ Franken-Foods) – He became one of latest victim of the SAD (DEAD) Foods diet…

Our society seems to be Looking the ‘other way’ & turning a BLIND – (IGNORANT) EYE to victims…

In 2015 – The fourth round of rehab is what brought him to this final point – A way out – with honor? Courage? to set a standard & Make a statement?

The Bishop of the Diocese of Little Rock participated in saying his Funeral Mass!

A statement that I heard LOUD & CLEAR!

And Now I drive my pen into the Berlin Wall CAFO-GMO-Man-made toxic by also multiplying the Vital Gluten & Lectins in the peel Non-Nutrients necessary, but made toxic by the MAGNIFICATION!

Industrial Farm Method of ‘Greed (Feeding GMO alfalfa to the animals we eat) & the Lust’ for money Producing Cheap Synthetic Foods… 

I thought it was over and then 

2017 the 1st of May another nephew’

The ‘Call’ came at 8 AM…

The Hard news -‘on the heels’ of healing from my Godson nephew’s tragic death on the New York freeway, two years before!

Another nephew, also a College graduate, employed, also Very Talented! Musician – with a band on the side…

Single – relied on Fast Convenient Food, BBQ Industrial Farmed CAFO-GMO animal protein.

Troubles relationships may have led to drinking to hide the anxiety.

The date of what was to be his wedding day – took his own life!

Now I write & reach out to Prevent & Reverse Mental Illness induced by the CAFO-GMOl, SAD American diet…

My Vindication … after years of being rejected & poked fun at…

New Science: Nutritional Psychiatry – Research on Depression & Mental Illness…2017 Dee Hinkle on LinkedIn There are more & more other studies revolving around this topic that support this research. THE NEW

Foods That Can Cause DepressionDee Hinkle on LinkedInFoods That Can Cause Depression By Kelly Brogan MD Teamhttps://kellybroganmd.com/5-foods-that-can-ca…

What is missing: 

NON-GMO Ancient Grain GLUTEN FREE FLOUR (Whole -not Over Milled) to support the CNS – The Thinking Brain – TO 

Not unlike slavery – Profit for the Plantation owners!

The Greed of the Modern day Money Changers & Tax collectors – Taking more than their “PRESCRIBED” amount (Over-Milling) –

CREATING DIABETES, OBESITY, MENTAL ILLNESS!  Removing the Plant Protein & (FIBER) from Ancient Grains that support the CNSMilling out the Plant Protein – DOUBLING THE ‘REFINED CARBS’ that are ‘Disease-Causing’!

HOWEER, It seems to be catching up with them – 

GMO the Cash Crops ..

Multiplying the Natural Seed Locks & MAGNIFIED Vital Glutens  – Gluten intolerance issues 

& Lectins in the Peel (Bitter to deter predators) create Magnified Lectins (EXCESS)-OBESITY!

CAFO-GMO-(GMold) Genetic Modification 

A bit like eating PB&J on MOLDY bread!

From ‘The Boxer’ – ‘Pocketful of Mumbles’!

‘They Hear what they want to hear – disregard the rest’!!

We approaching a PARADIGM SHIFT!

‘GMold’ MAGNIFIES the Food to ‘FEED THE WORLD’! 

Caused by Greed & All CAFO-GMold – Tasty, Synthetic, Fast, Cheap  & Nutrition-less’- (Another Flavor of GENOCIDE)?

While Genetic Modification –

Magnifies the FOOD – ‘To Feed the world’  The GOOD REASON!

THE REAL REASON IS ‘PROFIT’! Mega-profits from cheap ‘disease-causing’ substrates  – Formerly known as  ‘FOOD’!!

ALSO ‘MAGNIFIES’ are the ‘Seed Locks’- ‘Celiac disease’ rampant!!

ALSO  MAGNIFIES the ‘Lectins’ in the Peel– Bitter to ward-off Predators’ (Obesity, Neural Illness, Neural Diseases)!!

These ‘Naturally occurring ‘non-nutrients” – Ancestors removed by SOAKING in WATER (with medium) & RINSING AWAY before cooking!

‘CAFO-GMold’ ‘processing’ SKIPS this vital step

& the CREATES  Disease-Causing-non-nutrients are

‘GROUND’ into the flour Over-Milled (removing the Plant Protein)

Creating DISEASE CAUSING foods like – Whole Wheat Flour (UNCLEAN) 

** ‘Heat Altered’ CAFO-GMO Meat & Dairy 

Modern Dairy – ‘Mass Extinction’  GenocIde by Sweet Dysfunction

(Three STRIKES against Modern Dairy (not Pasture Raised): 

  • Contain ‘Dead Bacteria’ from Pasteurization – Replacing ‘LIVE’ Beneficial Bacteria  (digestion assistants)!
  • After 90’s – The Beginning of GMO fed to America’s Meat & Dairy sources) animals – Alfalfa, Soy or Corn – (Research is showing forms Alzheimer’s Plaques in the brain)!
  • Cortisol from ‘inhumane. stressful’ farming conditions. ‘Energy-sapping’ processed For Shelf Life! (not the ‘quality off our Lives’ (Medicare)

Plant Protein – Not altered by Heat, Over-Milling & GM0!

The Forgotten & Hidden Protein-(HIDDEN by Graft)!

 Disease-Causing CAFO-GMold – UNCLEAN Processing!

The Proteins that Supports the CNS & Prefrontal Brain (the Thinking Brain!)  Not CAFO-GMold but ‘PASTURED’ IS CNS  & Prefrontal Brain HEALTHY!

The Conversion is simple….(This may be the “Second coming!)

Healthy Donuts! So that Churches and have ‘Coffee & Donuts’

& not feel guilty…

FRIED in Wild pork OR ‘PASTURED – (not industrial GMO fed or’ PASTURE’ raised) …. Like our ancestors made them…Before WWII –

Which ushered in the Industrial-Chemical Age

Converting any dessert into entrees is EASY by using any whole (NOT OVER-MILLED) ANCIENT grain flour. It will cause a decrease in obesity, disease & mental dysfunction. Any recipe calling for “all purpose-less flour”can be simply converted to any whole Unaltered Ancient grain (sprouted is best). Other uses: breading, gravy , pie crust, bread pudding, birthday cakes, cupcakes, cookies, quick breads, “Our daily bread” can be eaten (3-5 servings a day) & brain fully supplied, without gaining weight. 

Give us this day our Daily Bread…not “cookie” Conventional bread that is mostly what is offered to us in the grocery store. ONLY 2 grams of GMO Plant Protein…

Song ‘I Refuse’ …Josh Wilson

‘Sometimes I, I just want to close my eyes, And act like everyone’s alright, when I know they’re not…This world needs God, but it’s easier to stand and watch…I could say a prayer and just move on, like nothing’s wrong, But I refuse…‘Cause I don’t want to live like I don’t care, I don’t want to say another empty prayer…Oh, I refuse to Sit around and wait for someone else To do what God has called me to do myself. Oh, I could choose not to move But I refuse’…

I do not know if God has called me (or others) on this mission…But I do follow an All powerful God – Who could do this if He Chose …

Any beloved ‘Comfort’ food can be easily converted:

Junior League of St Louis Cinnamon Rolls. http://archive.ksdk.com/news/local/story.aspx?storyid=189427St. Louis Days St. Louis Nights cookbook      Yield: 2 ½ dozen

1 tablespoon active dry yeast (1 ½ pkgs)

¼ cup warm water (105-115 degrees)

5 tablespoons butter-from Pasteurized dairy (GMO FED, Cortisol soaked & loaded with Dead Bacteria) – Alternative Virgin Coconut oil

1 cup milk (RAW milk from ‘Pastured” cows or ALTERNATIVE MILK:almond, brown rice milk or other healthy plant protein milks)

½ cup RAW sugar

1 teaspoon sea salt-with Kelp granules for Iodine

1 Non-GMO fed egg

4 cups flour (try Sprouted Spelt (ancient wheat) or Ground Almond Meal) or Italian Farro (home milled from berries)

½ cup (1 stick) pastured butter (without Dead Bacteria, Cortisol or GMO)

 Cinnamon mixture:

1 cup sugar (or to taste)

4 teaspoon cinnamon

 Sprinkle yeast into the water in a glass measuring cup; set aside to form.

In a small saucepan, melt the 5 tablespoons butter in milk; 

add sugar and sea salt. Pour warmed milk mixture bowl. Mix in the egg and flour. Use an electric mixer with a pastry hook or paddle, or mix by hand with a wooden spoon. Add the yeast mixture to the dough. (You may need to add up to ½ cup flour to ease handling). Cover the bowl with a damp cloth. Let dough rise in a warm place about 1 ½ to 2 hours.Meanwhile, prepare 9 x 13 inch pan by brushing with melted butter.Punch dough down. Roll out onto floured surface, ¼ inch thick.Spread ½ of melted butter and half of the cinnamon mixture.Cut strips of dough 3 inches wide and 3 inches long. Roll into cigar-shaped rolls 1 inch wide and 3 inches long…Dip rolls into melted butter, then roll into cinnamon mixture…Arrange rolls, seam sides down, into pan. Rolls should touch each other. Bake at 350 for 25-30 minutes.

http://www.organicsproutedflour.net/aboutus.html

http://wholegrainscouncil.org

 How could Cinnamon Roles be improved upon? And change society as well?

Our society is suffering from diabetes, cancer, heart & valve problems, ADDHD, depression, Alzheimer’s & other mind disorders.

Research is now showing the S.A.D. (Standard American Diet)…

Highly processed Animal Protein (fed GMO & trucked to market in (Cortisol Factories)

 & processed whites “all purpose-less flour or digestive-disease-causing “whole GMO wheat.” Over milled removing much of the FIBER & PLANT PROTEIN

OVER-Milled: Enriched” “GMO all purpose-lees” flour has been up to 50% of Essential brain nutrients & Plant proteins removed in processing… concentrates the GMO Franken Grains for “shelf life.”         

Refined Carbs fill the space displacing essential CNS nutrients…

often to 50% empty carbs…(The Industrial Farming idea (bad) that started after WWII, removed bran (fiber), vitamins, photo-chemicals, macronutrients that are needed to fight cancer free radicals & rebuild brain and body tissue & more. Sprinkling a few vitamins back in cannot possible replace all that was removed.

Heat altered – Pasteurized Dairy with Dead bacteria from Stressed animals (from birth to market) pumping Cortisol, Fed GMO alfalfa or corn…

 The only way to be healthy & to avoid weight gain & increasing CNS mental support & function at the same time.       

 More tasty compared to the processed while… It tastes “more nutty,” more satisfying (complex whole grain takes longer to digest, all of those brain nutrients!). There are hundreds of alternative and/or combinations: oat, brown rice, quinoa., even lima bean or very tasty “ground almond meal.”

In their Memories!

HT Wagner-Hinkle 

Dee Hinkle at LinkedIn (Plant Protein)

H T Wagner @ Twitter

dwh1nine@gmail.com

Dee Hinkle @ LinkedIn (Plant Protein)

htwagner@jencarebce.

https://www.jencarebce.com… (under construction)

JenCare BCE … Prevention & Reversal of Memory Loss & Disease & Dysfunction – Caused by SAD Diet….

Great Minds…Discuss Ideas!

Average Minds…Discuss Events!

Small Minds…Discuss People!

Smaller Minds…Gossip…

We are what we believe we are…C. S. Lewis 

“You are what you eat”…

William Lloyd Garrison abolitionist…We feel your pain…

I will be as harsh as truth… 

& uncompromising as justice… 

I am in earnest…

I will not equivocate…

I will not excuse, 

I will not retreat a single inch… 

& I will be heard…. 

William Lloyd Garrison abolitionist…We feel your pain…

Also applies to Post WWII Industrial Farming…

The Corrupt Processing methods…

Over-Heating Sweet Dairy… Cortisol Stressed GMO fed Cows & Live Beneficial Bacterial destroy by Pasteurization…Dead Bacteria in all Modern Dairy…

Over-Milling the LIFE…(plant protein) No longer whole grains…

Making themt GMO Franken-foods….

Roasting…for the sake TASTE…& of SHELF LIFE…Not our LIVES…

Also known as “The Queen of Plant Protein”

there is hope…

Foods That Can Cause Depression

Dee Hinkle on LinkedIn

Foods That Can Cause Depression By Kelly Brogan MD Teamhttps://kellybroganmd.com/5-foods-that-can-ca…

New Science: Nutritional Psychiatry – Research on Depression & Mental Illness…

Dee Hinkle on LinkedIn

There are more & more other studies revolving around this topic that support this research. THE NEW …

I Loved Her But From Afar – Defensive 

Failed Bonding

The unattached daughter (generational)

Sired by a neglected & insecure father

& an also  insecurely attached mother ~ (no judgment)

Just life as it was scripted before the foundation of time~

Failed to prune the ‘things of a child’

Feelings formed to fragile tenderness

Her children ruled her will – 

Her mind in the intrinsic only state.

Age 12 was “the “jump off” time”

From childhood to adulthood

The shoots fails to open…Land in enemy territory

With out a map

Provided by a knowing caregiver

A place for shelter

Enemies real & imagined surround

Proceeds to live as if a child she was still

Selfish

Thrifty to the point of miser/hoarder

Attaches to a mate that obeys her every whim

A lackey or a slave for a Queen Bee

To the point of ridiculous

May Reel her in…to mask her pouting and snorting

But save her grace to be burned another day.

Her words are of insult was honed to a “t”

Prejudging was her truth

God was there to support her causes & help her win her battles

The devil, to her wore boots to guard her from all of those from“off”

Prejudging was forever

A prejudice stuck in her mind

Like a fish bone in the crawl 

Always there nagging her to ‘get even’

Or it would not go away

Her insults were her sword to ward off the demons

Most of which were from “Off”

Her  mother-in-law spoke to him in a terse tone

Which made him cower

He promised never to use that tone in his family

That shaped him forever & her as well

God’s Will through Enmity..Genesis – Chapter 3

You Don’t Know Me

We meet again

Smile and chat awhile

You walk away always before

On the arm of that other guy

& you will never

How my heart aches 

You will never know 

The tenderness I feel inside’

The song says…

Afraid and shy

I let my chance go by

Billy

A chance that you might love me too..

Only God decides 

It is not ours to choose the roles we are to play..

But follow the Wise Men’s Star

Co-creators ~ we all are

To deny ~ not knowing the Science of Creation

To know our part & to play it well

Our destiny

As assigned before the Foundation of Time..

Knowing is simply recognizing 

What was hidden – But always there..

Our destiny does not lie in caving to our sensuality

But rather listening to a poem of hope

The prophesy…

The bearing of fruit

That will remain

Not fruit that is cut by 

Parcellated with the Pruning Knife…

Reinforcing

Holding on to feelings that are meant to insult

Holing in to feelings that are at the wrong time

Keeping a private, but a heart full of integrity.

Seeking only the truth

& remain steadfast under the strikes & pellets of lies

Knowing that “political correctness” is the cowards way  out.

Never intending to hurt feelings

But putting a positive spin

What is most disagreeable

Not taking the time to pause &  know beyond the sensory Ego.

Being satisfied with the status quo

Being lukewarm with striving for holiness and appreciation of the sacred…

Respecting dogma & not knowing or respecting the needs of the spirit

Which are to deny the urges of the Intrinsic primal  brain…

Making idols to have pleasure & not attend to the work of the spirit.

Nana slept on the sofa….not with Joshua on his palate 

Puff  Joshua, Afraid of the dark…

Tonight Puff went into her cave

Waited for Jackie Papers 

But he came no more…

Tears fell like green scales

Knowing that childhood had been exhaled…

(Puffed out)

Spent was the loneliness & fear 

loveliness of innocence now 

Filled is now his cup of greenness 

His honor & integrity will now become his own

& not necessarily that of those who are shepherding him…

His mind will rule his reason

Will morality be a friend to his soul…

And foe to his ego Puff

Or will the Ego Beast bark loudly

Claiming his soul as Ego Turf

The Star Wars will begin….

Will Luke want to follow the Beast or fight

When Darth Vader Calls

Will he put on the garb of Luke

or fall to the dark side of the Force

The dark side has no “SON’

To  give him energy & 

Be his spiritual ground zero for his darkest hours

Will The point on his Ego 

Earthly being closest to the ignition point 

Courage to do the right thing

and claim his birthright

Birthright  only  won by a well disciplined soul

Whose constitution cannot allow violation of the truth

Innate is the gold core of truth….

Life’s process becomes …

Carving away the earthly film,

to reveal the molten keepsake within…

Repeated circumcisions 

continual, incessant and contestant

labor pains 

The desolation and agony

of the world denied

Will finally yield the tenderness and sweet victory

of the enduring Infinite 

My last words for our night prayer 

After his “now i lay me down to sleep’ prayer

We to discern the inane 

& have the will to always to obey

& the courage to do “the right (& usually) hard thing”

We – more comfortable responding to call of the wild with 

Then I start to ruminate!

Habituated behavior serves if good & be true…

Having a gold souled intellect

to rethink the thoughts reflexive

Knee jerk

that keep our minds in the cave

Reshape them 

so they can exist in a higher plant

to serve as a storm trooper

It takes much well disciplined training

Cliff Rocks

Sediment layers at the bottom of a river

To a shelf for moss & lichen to grow upon

For the deer to forage 

For the creeping creatures to seek sanctuary

Anchor for the tree roots of life’s storms

Bedrock

The essence, core bedrock of all life

To be, we seek sound footing

The garments of life

Devised by disguise 

To trap a weary victim

One, not so cunning and sly

The infrastructure  dictates the outcome

Daily Bread is the  indicator of the quality of construction 

A frugal diet eaten in in poverty 

Is a house of cards or sand

A frugal diet eaten in the poverty of industrial farming

Where shelf-life and profit 

Is not unlike that of Sub Sahara

Differing only in that taste 

An intrinsic mind filter

Rudimentary 

Drive the culture of tasty grain fed, over stressed (internal & external hormones) meat 

& pasteurized  over-heated food 

Especially  dairy

Feeding the Basal Intrinsic Mind (Hunter-Gather)

& all of the aggressive  tendencies, selfishness 

&dysfunctional society

Monkeys discard the peel (with 2.5 nutrients)

And eat the sweet core only.

Just like fast and processed food.

Not many monkeys are rocket scientists, architect tall building…

The Miracle Brain (Midbrain (Monkey Mind Integration), Prefrontal, Cerebral cortexes)

Getting Close to the Cross

It is an enigma

A paradox

A contradiction

Of what matters not

What matters is the Soul Space

What matters not is the Ego lair

Layer upon layer

We move closer to infinity

Far beyond the depths from which we were wrought

 The hill & valleys of terrain

That fold into existence on earth

 To the hills – the Dura Mater (tough mother)

Rock

Arachnoid Mater (spidery cushion mother)  

The atmosphere

Pia Mater(soft mater) interfaces with the blood

Responsible for nourished the brain

Forest & plants

Cerebrospinal fluid – the sea

Tired of Me Lord?

I make your Cross harder to bear

By not carrying my weight

Toting my soul

In it fragile state

Know that any movement to the direction of the physical senses

Grace displaced

Lost & not to be replaced

It is so heard to explain 

The Intrinsic Mind proclaims

Barks orders

Relentless vigilance to guard the Ego

I don’t want to go there

“Most people, sometime in their lives, stumble across truth. And most jump up, brush themselves off, and hurry on about their business as if nothing had happened.”–Sir Winston Churchill

Friday, March 8, 2019 

Remembering Dad – Henry Wagner  

He was too tired (from his stay in the hospital)

to finish cooking their meal 

So  I went down to help 

& we had a lovely meal…

(Sunday Evening) 

Our Last Supper…

It just seems like yesterday…

He was the one to teach me to pray to the “Sacred Heart” for a “Happy Death’- (Sweet release of Life)…

It  worked for them & it will work for all of their children, grandchildren…

I believe it is in the DNA!!

Thoughts of Henry  & Evelyn ~

Henry Slays the Dandelions

Today he got two buckets full of ‘em!

He turns 90 this month, 

But age has not slowed his deep desire to “do just one more.”

Today it was the dandelions that were on his list.

Tomorrow it will be something else.

He can’t leave this earth just yet…

Tomorrow will be here to “do just one more.”

The Will to Give

In my early morning haze, 

I find myself hugging my coffee cup, 

Waiting for that moment of energy.

As I wait, I watch my mother and my dog.

Sadie lies silently at the old woman’s feet, 

Moving only when she moves or

To catch a fat laden morsel dropped sneakily to the floor—

Like food smuggled to a prisoner.

Caught!

The old woman is caught in the act.

Confronted!

“That’s why the ants come in!”  I say.

They lower their eyes knowing that they have been scolded!

Somehow we know that

The dog can always count on her treats,

The ants will come in  

And the Forgetful Old Giving Tree will remember the only thing that’s important…

The will to give.

His Shop Lies Empty

March 9, 1998…

I found him,

So peaceful.

He had told me that he would just sleep away.

His heart was weak after 90 years of toil.

It was in “doing for” that made his being

But simple tasks now made him sick.

His mind and will, so strong

Life was not worth living if he could not “do for” others.

He took care of his mother after his father died.

He stayed with her until all the younger brothers and sisters were grown.

He gave Evelyn the family that she had never known.

They gave us focus by keeping us God-centered.

They taught us what is important by giving.

They gave us success by teaching us to serve others.

They gave us joy because there was no room left for sadness.

They were simple people, needing little.

All he desired was affection,

He needed to know that he was loved.

His shop lies empty.

But why do I feel like I did not do enough?

I gave because I had plenty.

They gave, even though they had little.

His shop lies empty.

My work group sent flowers to me,

I took them to his shop.

A Piece of His Soul

March 9, 1999

I knew when they came to live with me

That this would be his last stop

I instinctively knew 

&  reminded  myself  daily

Knowing the inevitable….

I was sure that I would be be ready 

For the time when he left.

I remember waking at 3:00 AM

The morning he died.

I felt a sudden  saddening of emptiness.

I knew a part of me was no longer there.

I was not as prepared as I planned to be.

It was that moment that I understood agape  love.

The bonding love that binds and links life force.

& anchors 

Tethers to the ground of confidence 

That one free to aspire & create..

Now, one year later

The emptiness does not leave.

Nor is it filled …

As I fill my life with nothingness 

The emptiness is always there.

It almost becomes a companion, 

Reminding me of what is worthwhile.

Longing for that  place that I call home.

The Bond of Attachment broken…

It was knit 

Like a ticking bomb…

Ear to the pocket watch in his bib overalls 

As he rocked me to sleep

The Tommy Bond

Mom – the Daughter of Eve 

She knew survival 

She knew prayer

She knew love – unconditional 

The Greatness handed down by generational un-forgiveness 

 & she brought him home & Give to me to Care

Tommy was blessed by her mind & heart

As all of her children  were

Tommy never knew the Sustainable food from Subiaco 

Only the harsh unforgiving altered Non-Food that dissolved their magnificent minds

For the time being – it will be restored 

As will those who are called to forgive & be forgiven 

Their minds were  ‘Light’ in Subiaco

Darkness descended  on them  – As The Subiaco Super Mom Became  to  a subhuman  suburban mind – in the colors of forgiveness 

In the unforgiving empty faux-food of the Factory 

Even though I knew him

Faith healed in the end

Quality of Life

Quality of Death 

Left to Greed of the unholy 

Hitler of the Modern age 

Daughter of Evelyn  & Sister of Mine  

Poem for my Sister Hermina on Her birthday 

& the Chosen Child of Evelyn 

(Memorial of her Passing in the arms of her beloved daughter – October 4, 2001-

a month after 911

Evelyn – An orphan to none

Orphan to all

Broken by The World War

Channel of life longing for itself 

Cocooned for life

Crushed & broken 

Calcified – 

With no mother to cradle her in a Pieta 

her life, death & resurrection 

Consecrated her Family to the Care of the Cosmos

1938

The  Cosmos responded with Heart of Henry 

& all that followed 

Living off the land of Camelot

Subiaco – 

World at wars betrayed her 

Other wars raged around her – 

She overcame with prayer & sacrifice

Always the Giving tree 

Bessie’s milk her strength 

Her mind so strong 

Broken by the man-made milk-

that heat to destroyed her very life inside 

Dementia became her cocoon 

until she rested in the Pieta – the arms of Mary

All knowing

All mindful until death-

Trust in the Way 

In all things

Let nothing disturb you 

Stay

Remain

Anxious 

Disturbances

Steal all the good that might have been

Allow it to come to you

on the Wings of a Dove

the Holy Spirit

The Breath of God  

Where is their God?

The God of Abraham, Moses 

Dead

Replaced by new awareness

A Paradigm Shift 

New Warriors

Light workers

No longer ‘stiff  necked’

But earthworms 

Making castings

To amend the clay of tomorrow

Fertile 

Promising

Justice yesterday

Tomorrow

Renaissance

Better place to be

You Mete out Peace

A herdsman &

Dresser of Sycamores

 had a parallel, and more challenging, 

The prophet Amos, a herdsman 

A dresser of sycamore trees

Had a parallel  & more challenging, 

A calling as a shepherd of human souls.

Amos

I feel your pain…

Common

For the Common Good

Fire

Energy

Grace

Your Ways  I Lord are never straight

But they alway bring us home

Like  homing pigeons

We know where we belong..

Silently hidden

Private & holy

Helpless

Hapless

& reverent…

I love no other Way

The Way My High Way to my Center

My Core Connected to  Divine Cosmos

Your Heart

My Wisdom 

Used to Heal

& to be Healed

The Way through Mary

Martha-Take Heart

Embrace the calling 

As a shepherd of human souls

The Weeds in the Field

Stainless Steel 

Stained 

Tarnished 

& bare

We wait on Your Word

The Seeds of Life

The Way of the Cross

The only Way to ‘Know’ 

To Be

It is in You that we find Hope

Leadership & love…

Where Blind Worms can see

Can be lead out of the Darkness 

into the Light 

Bold leading the Blind

Binding Heart 

Knit our beings in the veins of Your Holy Web

Webwork

Meshwork of Creation

The Worms Will Inherit the Earth…

Earthworms

Their castings gold

The Proud will be left behind

& just go away…

Weak & lowly

Remain

I stand before You

My Heart in my hand..

It is my constants state of awareness

Lowly…in prospective 

Reflective & Grateful…

Your Heart

Sacred & Whole

Your Soul … Mary

My Mother 

Ever present in the darkness

of my sightless Mind…

In the Light of Forgiveness 

The colors of Forgiveness 

Nelson  Mandella 

The  Prince of Forgiveness

The Pride of the Humble 

Amen…

Sunday, October 1, 2017…Midnight…

Once Again..

The light that I thought had died March 9th 1998…

Reconnected & ignighted  a fire that will never die….

One Again..

Darkness

Unholy 

Frightening to open

 Awareness ..

What was dead 

Was brought back to life…

What was taken…

Now restored…

Good to be whole again…

The Wake

of valley of darkness

Suddenly a fire….

A flame…

WOW is all I can say

Thank you …

Missing pieces just never work right…

Whole is one…

The only way to Be..

Whole is Destiny…

The Dark night is over…

A new dawn is dawning

Like a seductive Presence 

out of the chasm 

The Pit of nothingness

That made my hope grow dim…

Aimless

Trusting

Knowing

Found…

Now

I have walked 1000 miles

& now I hold that Butterfly again..

Amen Alleluia..

Saturday, October 1, 2011 

First Friday & First Saturday

11:00 PM Prayers

Holy Space

Prayer… layer upon layer

Waiting for the Gate to open…

The air is thin

Ordinary and plain spoken

Heart broken

The touch comes from nowhere

The Living Presence shapes in the form of a gift

The air changes to amber

listening

The sounds peal

Hearing the tumult 

The upheaval move near…

Knowing the soft loud rustle

The delicate…

Almost imperceptible force 

Settles in my soul

Nestles next to my being

Present in every way

My place in this prayer is suspended

Divinity inundates

Like a butterfly

Hold only for a heartbeat…

But once held

Can never be the same

Would walk a thousand miles

to hold the butterfly again

The Onion Peel

Our First Breath

The most outer dried layer of protection

Where we start & where we begin

safe 

From the radical rays of the SON

Each test 

Each layer  becomes 

Each layer pushes on the last one….’

Root cellar it is

Life stored 

Foundation 

Mineral & mirth

God’s sense of humor

Flavor the seasons of our soul 

To the core 

To Immortality 

On raw Breath of God

Theo Holy Spirit

The Assistant 

The crutch 

That  Guides into  tomorrow & beyond..

When being like Jonah

We say “no, thank you “

He persists..

If vital to the Plan

&  finds a carrier

Makes plain His Will

His Will 

Will be done 

His Way

The Way of the Cross

AA or no Way…

the Evil One comes and steals away

what was sown in his heart…

He defeats the evil one 

Against our Will

We obey…

His timing remains

Diverted

 but True 

Inspiration: 1 JER 3:14-17

The seed sown on the path is the one who hears the word of the Kingdom

without understanding it,

 the Evil One comes and steals away

what was sown in his heart…

(the Evil one is distraction…by free will choice..to look the other way..

When some tribulation or persecution comes because of the word,

he immediately falls away.(from the Spirit inside)

The seed sown among thorns (all sensuality  of Man) is the one who hears the word,

but then worldly anxiety and the lure of riches choke the Word

and it bears no fruit.

1.  August 14, 2018

Saint Maximilian Kolbe, Priest and Martyr

2. Gratitude Poem

When asks to do the Extraordinary

Mary said Yes

Max Kobe said yes.

I say yes

I am but a worm

Just knitting through clay

Making Casting on the way..

This waste 

Enriches soil

Empowers life to mushroom

& undertake dreams planted 

Like poppy seeds

Waiting on the Universal signal

When my seeds line up 

Sings up 

Dreams of tomorrow

Catch fire   

Grow

Splinters  & shards  

With sharp edges of Uncertainty 

a Controlled Burn 

Makes a clearing 

Removing unwelcome barriers & energy  hogs

I love no other way

Those who form weapons against Your Way

Powerless to Prosper

& just go away.

Not to be morned

The stress dissolved 

Seeing clear vision

To mollify

Quieten the thundering hoards

Noises made by ‘all the is not God’

He is the quiet calm between The spaces of the matter called man

Of the sandy shores suspended in the Thin Air of the Cosmos

it is in Giving we receive

the makings

The hallmark of  an intentional saint…

You Don’t Know Me

Friday, February 15, 2013

We meet again

Smile and chat awhile

You walk away always before

On the arm of that other guy

& you will never

How my heart aches 

You will never know 

The tenderness I feel inside

The song says…

Afraid and shy

I let my chance go by

Billy

A chance that you might love me too..

Only God decides 

It is not ours to choose the roles we are to play

Co-creators we all are

To deny, is to be counter to a participate in creation

To know our part and to play it well

Is our destiny

Chosen before the foundation of time..

Knowing is simply recognizing

Our destiny does not  cave to sensuality

But rather listening to harbinger of hope

The predictor the bearing that will bear fruit

That will remain

Not fruit that is cut by the pruning knife.

Holding on to feelings that are meant to insult

Holing in to feelings that are at the wrong time

Keeping a private, but a heart full of integrity.

Seeking only the truth

& remain steadfast under the strikes & pellets of lies

Knowing that “political correctness” is the cowards way  out.

Never intending to hurt feelings

But putting a positive spin

On all, especially the most disagreeable

Not taking the time to know beyond the sensory Ego.

Being satisfied with the status quo

Being lukewarm with striving for holiness and appreciation of the sacred…

Respecting dogma & not knowing or respecting the needs of the spirit

Which are to deny the urges of the monkey brain…

More fun to have pleasure & not attend to the work of the spirit.

The Smartest Earthworm on the Planet

Knows nothing but the business of the day

Blind

Deaf to distractions

In Love with Mission

Stops a nothing to fulfill

Sees no evil

Cares not!

Hears vibrations &

Warnings to move to the step of a different drum~

Ok with being the lowest on the totem pole of the sky

Loves all others

Not only the other earthworms who are ~ Just like me!

Suffering of others

Intolerable ~ not to be tolerated 

But ‘Martha-tized”

The Feather Game

Our Core

Private & Personal

Open to the World 

Not to all who is only of the World

We own our thoughts 

Positive & well Marinated with Mediation

Others judge

It is all they know

They are doing the best they can with what they have been given

Hide & seek shelter

Trust

The Truth will always emerge 

Bright 

Shining in the Noon day Son

the Mind of Christ

the Thinking Brain of the Cosmos

We are truly Dust in the Wind

& that is all we can be

Unless we choose to free from what tethers was to the the planet 

We call home

Our home is in the bosom of the unseen God

We are the matter

the Clay

the unseen God

The Space in between

Where we often  claim home

Mediation 

Only a feather 

Left in a place whee God Will find it 

Meditation of desire

Blessed in the Space where only Large minds roam

Take them 

Break them down to compartments of matter

That matters not

Release them to the Cosmos

Live 

Breath

Bring on more God…

Loose the meaningless thought 

that tether  & hold us down 

Prometheus bound

On the terra firma 

We call home

Until Hercules sets free

The Feather Game

Monday, May 27, 2019

Our Core -poem

Private & Personal

Open to the World 

That is not the World

We own our thoughts 

Positive & well Marinated with Mediation

Others judge

It is all they know

They are doing the best they can with what they have been given

Hide & seek shelter

Trust

The Truth will always emerge 

Bright 

Shining in the Noon day Son

the Mind of Christ

the Thinking Brain of the Cosmos

We are truly Dust in the Wind

& that is all we can be

Unless we choose to free from what tethers was to the the planet 

We call home

Our home is in the heart & mind of the unseen God

We are the matter

the Clay

the unseen God

The Space in between

Where we often  claim home

Mediation Only a feather 

Left in a place whee God Will find it 

Meditation of desire

Blessed in the Space where only Large minds roam

Take them 

Break them down to compartments of matter

That matters not

Release them to the Cosmos

Live 

Breath

Bring on more God…

Loose the meaningless thought 

that tether  & hold us down 

Prometheus bound

On the terra firma 

We call home

The Night Before Christmas

Is where I intend to live all my life

In the Shadows ~ That illuminate the blind

That frolic in the Autumn Mist of memories past

Past on to the lovers & lonely 

We are but a notion of God

Home

A place that always was

A place that can never be held 

A place that is forever now

Parents prepare us to sustain 

Sustenance they give freely

Our nurture is broadcast minute by minute

Like God  sending instruction perpetually

Received by those who long & listen for instructions & guidance

Lord, Make My Prayer

April 8. 2009

Lord, make my prayer

Fold it into your arms

Make them gentle-loud

Make it from my heart 

To Your Sacred Heart

Direct From the  Connected Unconscious (Carl Jung)

When I am tired 

And if my eyelids close on You

Read my mind

Find those intentions  that

My File Clerk misplaced

Pray with me on my morning walk

When I am anxious

Wrap me in layers and layers of 

Your grace for insulation

You know my heart

(The one that flip flops instead of beating)

Day by day You have granted my desire for 

Wisdom

Knowledge

Understanding

Knowing that You are always there

And always will be

Gives me quiet `confidence and joy

You permeate all beings

In animate and intimate

The Harshness in the Light of Truth 

We feign “politically correctness”

Tip toe around extra tender feelings

Never brought to light in truth

The horror of hurting feelings of others

Sends our frenzied ruminating mind

Into protect & defend mode immediately

CYA

When truth happens, this is not necessary

But we have to choose it

It does not always choose us

Last Day At the Cabin

The cabin that will be no more

The Great Equivocator’s Bookends:

Came into our possession the year Kebel dies

Shortly after the Flood that changed our plans to build on the other side

Where Kebel built the “sturdiest bridge to nowhere”

& now is on the market 

Coinciding with Dorothy’s death

Hardly used

Heard rain drops on the tin roof when it rained

Wistfully scavenged  the cliff rocks behind it

Knowing that this was never to be..

Hung art for no one to view

Stocked with food that grew stale

Occasionally loaned to friends..

It was here for us to use

Just in case

We earned extra grace to spare

But Abe, Loretta, & Billy never came to fruition…

They were the graces that would have fired this life

This vocation

Like flowers blooming in the desert

For no one to see.

Next boat load of grace

I pray to have to courage to do”the hard thing” and think of others..

Not me

Prompt words from LL

Inexorably, wallpaper, travel.

Stealing Poetry from Robert Frost 

The Speck

Traveling at warp speed …

But unnoticed to the wary eye

Thin the air aloft

Set off across the space 

So clear

A forest flies & dragon flies

In time,

We travel 

to a  place that we once knew

Subiaco

Camelot

Sir Lancelot on a fine steed

& Maid Marion

The wallpaper of my psyche

My soul

The fly on the wall

inexorably mine

A speck that would have been above my sight

On the Wallpaper high

Camouflage

When something strange about it 

made me think…

Inexorably linked …

To all that is

Was 

& will forever be….

My BCE Sins ~ Forgive me Father ~ for I have sinned against my clients..

The list below how many of these good health habits have taken Root?

Not insisting  on a 2-4 week Fast (Daily fast until 10 AM…small meals of mostly Plant or Seafood Protein seasoned with ‘pastured animal protein”?

Not setting guidelines more clearly for Farro, green vegetables & other Non-GMO cereal 3 times daily (each meal)

 not differentiating Body Food from Prefrontal Brain Food

Anti-Anti-Inflammatory Trail (Cancer fighting) …made weekly consumed daily …even though “SNACKING IS A SIN”

Farro, Buckwheat or quinoa (SOAKED & rinsed) 2 times a week 

Plant protein Smoothie….1st raw nuts, then vegetables & then fruit

Whiskey Raisins…must for flu season…2 time if having symptoms..

Daily bread prepared 2-3 time weekly 1 to 1/2 slice a each meal…

Bone stock each week with soup made from it…

Kombucha …mothers to give away

For future … Fermenting cucumbers

Kimchi…Cooking directions

Rinse and prep cabbage. Cut cabbage into strips and place in mixing bowl. …

Pour cabbage into a strainer and rinse under cool running water. …

Combine sugar, pepper flakes, nori and sugar in a small mixing bowl. …

Meanwhile, rinse and prep daikon, ginger, scallions and garlic. …

Pack kimchi into Mason jar.

Sep 14, 2015

How to make kimchi in 5 easy steps | MNN – Mother Nature Network

https://www.mnn.com/food/recipes/stories/how-to-make-kimchi-in-5-easy-steps

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